Advice that hard to follow

~LIVE YOUR LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT. IT WONT MAKE YOU RICH AND IT WONT MAKE YOU POOR~

How I wonder...if I really live my life the way I want, will it be better or worse than now. Now i already live my life the way I want but...there are lot of thing that dont go the way I want. So in my case, even I live my life the way I want it does not make me happy anymore.
Or is it because my pesonality that quickly get bored doing same thing everyday. If it really because of my personality, then I guess no job suit me. Even being unemployed not suit me...because I bored as s**t now.
The way I want to live is simple:
1) settle PTPTN
2) settle MARA
3) travel around the way

Looking at my saving...I can cross that no 1. Work for more or less 1 year then settle no 2. But the problem is no 3. How will I get money to travel.
Even I said to live my life the way I want...I dont want to make my parent sad. People expectation. 25 years old = married. Seriously...I have zero intention to get married. I dont have bad experience in love. All my experience make me who I am today. I dont have problem with boys. I may have some trust issue problem but it not strong enough to make me not to get married.

The real problem is...I want to run from people expectation. When people expect me to get married...i dont want to get married even more. When people expect me to get a job...the more I feel like to stay at home. When people expect me to have child after I get married...it make me want to enjoy being single more. I AM A GIRL...I WANT TO GET MARRIED...I WANT TO HAVE CHILDREN BUT NOT NOW.

I am fine with anybody expectation..but not my parent. They have lot of expectation on me...how I want to complete it when all I want is to run from all this s**t. I want to live it the way I want. I want to spend my money the way I want. I want to go to places I want. But I know in the end...my parent is the one that get hurt from all of this.

People..or should I say Malay. They expect you to follow that certain flow. Compared to old time...we become more open minded. But still Malay...its in their blood to compared their own child with other child. Although they not realized it...they want you to become one successsful child way of life..that flow of progress.

I have my own definition of success. Quit a well paid job was one of my definition of success. Having thousand of camera was one of my definition of success. But the best definition of success for me is...I able to bring my family to travel around the world without any worry about money.

Money is something that come from bank and end up in bank. How people worship that piece of paper never fail to amazed me. Of course..money is important. But you still can live just fine without it. (Right???or maybe not).

Bottomline is...even i want to live my life the way I want...even I want to run from people expectation...my family is much more important than my own satisfaction. So...how will I be happy doing things that I want to run from?? Even my way of live does not make me happy...it sure is worse with other poeple way of live that I should follow.