confuse......

sorry 4 not keep my promise 2 write a novel but...my mind is'nt really well these few day...what should i do??? i miss both of my bff....but then i still hurt with them.
org kte klu windu2 sgt 6t bleh meroyan.....aka...gila. tpi aq mkn lme rse mkn nk mrh je kt bdk2 2.....tlg ah phm aq....x kn sbb ko ade awex korg dh x lyn aq...hello....org len pn ade awex gak elok je lyn aq.....aq just hope.....korg spend mse utk aq ckit je....aq just hope kte leh brk2 cam dulu...kte leh chatting...n msg mcm dlu2...tpi skang jgn kn nk anto msj.....nk komen aq kt fb pn korg dh x sggp.....aq x thu ah klu aq ade wt slh ke apeker...just.....klu aq ade wt slh plis bgthu......aq bknnyer phm sgt korg...at least x phm korg skang...@ maybeaq yg sllu slh phm ngan korg......

arghhhhh...sial...aq x thu ape ag nk wt...klu dlu aq gaduh ngan roomate aq aq leh kol korg....tpi kes 2 x ssh skang...skang..aq sllu gaduh ngan mak aq tpi stiap kli aq igt nk kol ko nk mntk tngkn aq....aq tkt korg dh x sggp dgr mslh aq...aq tkt korg cite kt awex korg....so skang x de sape dh nk dgr aq....even my parent.....

i just need some1 to take ur part n i hve found a girl...she is 1 of my bff but then she can't make me relax n calm...just u guys....plis..ape ag nkwt nie...blog pn cam dh x leh tlg aq.....so plis some1 just give me an advice at least.....

still the same......

thank god blog is here....ntah lah aq rse cam org bodo m'hrpkn bulan jth ke riba sdgkn aq thu klu bln jth ke riba aq nk kiamat ah 2 jwbnyer.....tpi x pe ah ksh sdh aq, aq nk ianya b'akhir di cnie....biarlah kte derita dlm kebahagian org len jgn kte bhgia dlm derita org len...lgpn...dye dh byk wt baik ngan aq dh tiba mse aq bls semenyer...klu elkkn dri adalah sstu yg dye mintak dri aq..then dye akn dpt bende 2 dri aq.....smge dye dpt bhgiakn kwn aq 2....smge dye success sllu ngan ep dye ngan kumpln musik dye 2....

i guess its time 4 me to look 4 some1 to be able to take him away from my mind....so....i decide to write a novel...not to be sale but to be read by every1 for free...since i does not really like to spend my money on novel so let save urs...at least we can use it 4 othr emergency situation......

how about its was about some1 that always have a bad luck on love just like me...n some adventure....n some family conflict...with some dream...n fantasy....its will be some from my experience n some from the imagination n tv....
i will start it tonight with the draft first maybe...or maybe not...
i was thinking how about some cartoon to cheer things up...n release my tension at least...i'm sure its not that beauty but...its just cartoon that nice to see....but it may look alike kaoru @ maybe zint creation @ maybe look like me....so here i wold like to ask 4 approvel from kaoru & zint....(ooooo...its ok...taht meant u buy our book...so i give u the right to copy...from zint & kaoru...).....muahahahaha...arigato....i will buy more comic from both of u...muahahaha(glk mcm org jht x cool...-fairy oddparent cartoon-

why....

nape ngan bezpren2 aq...ble msg2 dh ade psgn msg2 mcm aq nie x prnh wujud je....
sdgkn...aq yg knlkn dyeorg tpi dyeorg lyn aq camnie lak....dh lah skrg adalh saat2 yg aq sgt butukn mereka tpi knp leh jd camnie....

ok...aq trima klu dyeorg x de mse nk msj aq...so..aq msj dyeorg...tpi still dyeorg x bls....sdgkn msj org len leh lak dye bls.... aq dh rse dri aq nie cam perigi cari timba lak...pdhl dyeorg just kwn aq....tpi lg trk dri org yg x prnh knl aq....

at least org yg x knl aq...aq anto msj 100% blsnyer ah...tpi dyeorg jgn kn nk bls...aq skt ke msk hospital ke blm tentu nk tanya kabo jgnkn nk jenguk.... rse cam org bodo lak ngadu kt blog tpi k wt camne klu dulu leh ah ngadu kt dyeorg...tpi skang dye org pn x de mse nk bls msj aq nikn plk nk dgr aq ngadu....

dulu sblm ade couple...."x pe klu ko ade ape2 brthu aq mne thu aq leh tlg...ktekn bff" tpi blm pn aq ade mslh bsr blm pn aq mintk duit ke ape ke...bru dyeorg ade couple...dh tgk aq mcm aq nie invisible....org camnie layak ke nk pggl kwn...

maybe ah aq x perfect at least...i try my best to help them wlupn mse 2 aq sndiri ade mslh...walupn mse 2 aq bz nk pekse....tpi x pe 4 my bff...org kte duit leh cri... tpi kwn sejati sekali seumur hdp...so...aq hargai dyeorg sebaik2nye.... time dyeorg bsn aq tmnkn...wlupn kul 3 pg....dyeorg x de kedit aq tlg topupkn wlupn aq sndiri sengket duit...tpi nape still dyeorg lyn aq camnie...

aq ade bce... mslh yg dtg pd kte...adalh ujian dri allah atas dosa yg kte lkukn...mmg aq sedar aq mmg byk wt dosa...n dosa2 di wt ngan sengaja...tpi...klu nie ah sbgi topup dosa2 aq...aq x thu smpi ble lg aq leh thn....aq mmg jenis org pns baran tpi...
aq x thu nape utk kwn2 aq, thp ksbrn aq jauh lbh tinggi dri yg aq sangka kn....

tpi...maybe gak sbb couple dyeorg lg bek dri aq sbb 2 dyeorg lg sygkn couple dyeorg dr bff dyeorg...mksdnye ade 1 kenyataan yg b'bunyi" org lelaki sllunya lebih pntgkn kwn mereka dr keluarga mereka", kenyataan 2 x btl...sbb..bru couple blm pn jd bini dyeorg dh sggp tgglkn kwn dyeorg....@ maybe kenyataan 2 x leh pkai utk dyeorg je kot....

abis seme bnde aq tls kt blog nie...lega ckit rsenye....tpi lg lega klu ade org yg phm aq...ade org yg sggp jd bhu aq lg saat aq nk nangis...sbb skang aq dh hlg part 2.... mmg camnie ke hdp...x pernah nk sng...2 aq jer yg ambk bende nie ssh2...sdgkn kt luar sne ada lg org yg sme nsb ngan aq..tpi dye take it easy...maybe x kot...sbb aq x prnh dgr ade org wt rungutn psl bff dyeorg...sbb once bff, 4ever bff....maybe dyeorg bkn bff sbnr aq..maybe aq should keep looking 4 my bff to arrive.... x sgka aq igtkn seme bende aq leh take easy on it but its seem that, finding a good friend is the hardest thing in the world that may be happen to me, although i'm a friendly person but maybe its not enough.....please....i ned some motivation 4 this situation...

weird.......

weird...ble org yg ktew hrp msj kte,syg kte x plk wt cam2....org yg kte x hrp n mmg x nk lak sbuk nk take care kter....pening3.....

now...sure my boypren couple with my freind....jd normal ke bg aq rse jeles sdgkn aq yg knlkn dyeorg n b'ia2 sgt nk suh dyeorg couple tpi ble dh jd real aq jeles lak.....

maybe sbb ko jeles boypren ko 2 x msj ko dh x????maybe ah...tpi...nape dye mcm nk elak kn dri dr aq bkn aq nk mrh pn dye couple ngan kwn aq 2 just...maybe aq kutuk ah dye ckit...tpi dye spttnye ucap trimas kt aq bkn wt bodo camnie....

aq igt dye dh phm aq lps lbh 3 thn kte org kwn...but i guess not kot...pompuan mmg ssh nk phm laki...apa ag laki nk phm pompuan...pah ceroh ah dyeorg x kn phm

Its sucks....

mmg trk ble pakwe kte kne kebas ngan kwn bek kte...pas2 pakwe 2 leh wt x knl lak kt kte...cdih nyer aq...dah ah result giler babi nyer teruk....ntah ape aq nk jd nie...arghhhhh...aq still x leh trime pakwe aq sendiri merangkap bezpren aq sendiri wt aq camnie...nmpk nye lah aq nie x pntg dlm hdp dyeorg...aq x on9 fb 3 mggu x de sorg pn tnye...tmbh lak ngan mak aq blebe...mahu je aq bnh diri klu iman x kuat...tpi insyaallah aq akn sabo...tq to blog at least ada gak tmpt aq ngadu....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

td ex aq msj dye nie x thu ke kslhn dye kt aq yg dye wt 4 thn lps aq still igt n its mean pengalamn 2 sgt trk...smpi aq x leh lupe...tpi aq bls gak msj dye...sbb wak2 camnie aq mmg perlukn ssorg...tpi mlgnye len org yg aq hrp len yg dtg....

why aq sllu bad luck dlm b'cinta....giler ah...ah...x nk cite psl bende jiwang nie dh....aq nkcite psl..pg td...

aq dh start ambk lsn kete ari nie...first kne dgr ceramah kpp..mmg bosan gler....aq siap leh tdo g...hahaha..dpt jmpe kwn bru not bad ah..klu aq t'cmpk ke u jauh2 leh gak aq msk ngan kwn2 nie...

anyway hdp x prnh sng klu kte pkr dye ssh so......, just thing about the happines in live...n b'syukur ah kte msh hdp

At last....

akhirnya aq dh kembali normal....dh x de feeling toward anyone....especially my bezfren..yg pntg today mothers day...my mum lak x mntk pe2 adiah...sek bek save wit aq...

tpi aq still curios klu roomate aq kapel ngan bezfren aq...dh ah aq kesunyian skang...pakwe aq lak kne kebas mmg rezab ah...ble hdp aq nk jd normal...stkt perasaan aq je normal still x btl nie...

argh...p'setankn ah dyeorg dye dh jd penyanyi skang mne lyn dh org cam aq...mesti cri kwn yg leh naik kn group dye...smpi aq anto msj pn x bls...maybe x de kedit..tpi klu aq ajk chat kt fb pn nk mengelak lupakn je ah ko bezfren aq...bodo ah ade kwn camnie skt tol ati aq...heh

Long missing....

dh brpe ari aq x update blog nie same goes with fb....tpi x de org prsn pn...
nmpklah aq nie x pntg lgsg...tpi sbnrnye slh aq gak...prsaan aq nie sllu b'cmpr2...
pening ah ble kte jth cinta pd bezfren kte...wlaupn aq dh brthu byk kli kt dyeorg yg aq ske dyorg tpi mlgnye dyeorg igt aq ske dyeorg just like a friend. pening ah camnie....

jd ada beknye jgk aq g smbg study kt australia...at least aq x jeles klu dyeorg couple ngan org len pn...sbb aq yg tgglkn dyeorg...tpi aq x rela nk tgglkn ikan aq n roommate aq...aq still hrp aq dpt jmpe ngan roomate aq...tpi klu dh aq g study australia camne aq nk jmpe dyeorg...

plus, aq rse roommate aq skang nie tgh b'cinta ngan bezfren aq 2....lg lh png pale aq...aq x nk d sbbkn perasaan aq...aq n roommate aq jeles sesama sendiri...lg 1...ble aq hrp my first luv dtg pd aq...dh merata tmpt cri pn x jmpe...klu x nk dlu...setiap saat ada kt cc aq...arghhhh...bodo btul....