heh...

at last...im free again...but at least i added 1 more bro in my life...
amazing isn't when u still can be friend with ur ex....most people choose not to know anything about their ex anymore...but...we break not of fight @ anything...we break b'cause we love each other & don't want to hurt each other more...
but i in love with my bro once again...oh nooooo....its suck cause i know he will not love me more than just a sister to him..
but when its come 2 feeling nothing 2 say...i hurt once...happy once...hurt n happy...again n again...maybe this is the way allah want me to be matured in love n life
now...aq plik ngan dak laki camne dyeorg leh thn prsaan ble dyeopg crg ngan gf dyeorg...plik2...
done with love...go 2 study...
ok...my pointer is pretty great...but i fail programming...shit... i hv 2 repeat & go thourgh the nightmare once again...its ok...now i will be prepare...
as 4 2nite...thank to our team...we all win the AFF suzuki....u guys r just soo great...sabar, redha n most importantly....full of energy n spirit...may malaysia get back our glory moment...
happy 4 2day...

blog...

update seminggu skli 2 kre rajin ah an...
lgpn x de ape2 special sgt t'jd mggu nie...
just g giant kijal...
byk jmptn kawin...
n 'its complicated' situation....
sdgkn aq rse kteorg steady jer...
lntk ah dye...
maybe dye ade sbb sndri...
n just t'kilan skit ah...
anyway...
windu pakwe2 ku..haha
mmdgkn x de per sgt nk citer...
aq doakn seme jge dri musim hujan nie...
jgn smpai dmm lak...
nk msk sem bru dh nie..
tc k

mistake...

dlm byk2 kslhn yg aq wt...kslhn yg pling bsr adlh trima cinta dye@ reject cinta dye...now sme nie dh jd 1 kslhn...
aq x thu sape aq dlm hdp dye...but i can feel that im no1 in his life....not anymore...i guess my decision have hurt him deeply...very deeply...
maybe this time i can really let go of any boys in this world...i dont think trying to find a true love is a good action for me...maybe never be a good action at all...i guess marrying some1 that luv u is good enough than hoping for some1 to luv u back...
if that the case... i guess that i gonna be engage next year maybe in May...i hope this time it was a good decision...i hope no1 will be hurt by my action anymore...
and just too tired to hold on what people want to feel about me...
every1 is better off without me...
it was the best decision...
give me strength to face all of this...
lastly please pray 4 my result...
pray that i dont hv to repeat...it gonna give me more burden...
ya allah tolong makbulkan doa aq nie...hanya pdmu aq memohon...n hanya engkau yg b'kuasa memakbulkn doa hambamu...tlglah ya allah

regret...

btul ah an...org kte...manusia nie ble dh hlg sesuatu bru nk hargai..bru thu betapa penting nye benda 2...
ya..i regret that i ask 4 a break from a pure luv i ever got..but i cant keep using him..just because im lonely i use him as a toys...some1 that should listen to me...
but god know the best 4 me...if he really destine to be mine...i can do nothing to stop it...
but im sorry 4 him that he luv me so much...but i noticed that he just fine as the way i am...although there always sweet moment that keep go around our head but..we will get to used to it...
but...a noticed that he had find some1 that suit him as my replacement...maybe it was the best...
but jealousy is all around me right now
lets stop talking about it...lets continue about some1 i know through ym...i cant think what is right or wrong until my father told me..
who is he??? i dont know..but what i do know is...he is from t'ganu work as tow track driver and he is 27 years old..
what is bad about him..is his job..why???mmy family had a car xcident that is MAYBE cause by the tow truck driver dirty trick...
but i do believe...it was just some of them...
although i dont really trust him but i got a feeling he is a good person...
but my major mistake is that i tell him where i live...my perfect address...
my father just afraid that he might doing something bad...
now im confuse...
arghhhh...headache
last story for this week...
my ex has find my fb...but it good to reconnect with him...he used to mine...soo it ok with me...just fine...
owhh..what i really want this week is...
i wanna a baby...the fancy little cloth in the sale was sooo cuuuuuuuuuuuuuute

truth...

seriously i can't love u...but i dont know 4 how long...
but i need u to accompany me through this life...
until i found some1...
i'll pray u find some1 suit u...
im so sorry to use u..
but love is something that i cant force...
hope u'll find some1 b4 i started find some1...
and hopefully u not love me more than i hope u will...
just know that..we may not fated to be together...
but i like u more than u ever imagine...
for me...
u r my first love...
some1 that i will remember 4 the rest of my life...
tq 4 loving me...

License...

hahaha...sorry...actually i should post this earlier but...thu2 je ah duk rmh nie...lepak dpn tv jer kejenye...ok there are few story happen in this week some good some bad...lumrah hidup...
FINAL...not bad...most of the question i can answer it..but...most of them r error...huhuhuhu...target mse jwb...asl x tggl kosong dh..jwb je ah ape2 pn...lps dh abis paper bru realize error yg b'timbun...mkin cuak nie...x pe ah...aq dh jwb..hal keputusan kte doa n tawakal k...
LESEN...pg mmg pg nk mampus...kul 8 dh kne ade kt cne...mmg ngantuk...kul 8 2 practice blik ape yg aq dh bljo...haha...seme aq dh lupa...mmg hncr ah...byk kli gak try...time test....seat ok..cermin ok...wiper ok...gear free ko..haha...aq dh rse dh...1 mrkh krg....xpe2 nk kuo g jln rye...jpj 2 dh jd mcm ckg memandu aq...bkn cm jpj pn..."ok mula2 gear 1...tgk cermin..ok jln"...adoyai...aq dh target mmg byk aq hncr nie...dlm ati...xpe ah..nk wt cmne..duit ah lg skli...spjg jln jpj 2 cbuk citer psl ank dye,kg dye...org kg aq rpenye jpj nie...haha...ank dye 1 u ngan aq...haha...dlm ati...bleh thn bjak gak ah ank dye nie...leh klu nk try ushar...huhuhu...dh stop kt abis test..dye srh sain borang...aq mmg dh cuak...tgk2 dye bg 17/20...sdgkn syarat lulus 16/20...so aq LULUS yeahhhhhh..mmg gembira sgt2..first thing aq wt...pluk ayh aq...haha ank bapak...second thing air milo....third...anto msj kt my luv....start time nie bru aq sdr aq dh bleh time dye dlm ati aq...which is good to hv some1 to talk to and share our joy....mmg gembira sgt2 wak2 2...
RAYA HAJI...nie cite lucu....rye aji 17...ari rabu...famili bsr aq dh ade kt cheneh...ade dr KL ade dr KT...seme pakat mai cnie nk korban lembu....smpai jer kt tempat nk korban..dgr citer lembu yg kteorg nk korban dh lari msk dlm hutan...alamak....relax2...no hal..sbb dh ganti lembu bru...yeah...dh sedia nk korban.....seme dh pakat rmai2 kumpul kt kndg lembu 2..tggu nk rebah an & korban jer...tetibaaa...lembu 2 pn lari msk hutan...dh nk wt lgu mne lgu nie...seme sedara dh pakat frust...mai jauh2...lembu x leh korban...yg best nyer..seme dh ade impian msing2...ade nk wt gulai ah...ade nk wt singgang ah...ade nk wt sup ah...skli....hah...ambik ko...jgnkn daging bulu hidung pn x dpt...haha
CINTA...hei nmpknye..ksh peribadi aq dh diketahui adik2 aq.....which is..this is the scariest thing ever...sbb ape???sbb famili aq nie skil ske kutuk org...terse gak kne kutuk 2-3 ari...sllu bab2 jiwang nie...aq yg tkg kutuk bkn yg kne kutuk...tpi dh smpi mse aq...mmg rse nk bunuh jer famili aq nie...plus...ayh aq lak x bg aq kwn ngan dak 2...yg tmbh skit ati...ble nk bncg hal nie ngan dye..dye leh ckp..."xpe ah...ayh dh x bg kte ikut jer ah"...lgsg xde usaha nk pkir cmne nk settle hal nie...nmpk cm dye redha jer klu kteorg break....tpi yg wt aq sdih...aq dh start syg dye...klu ayh bgthu awl2 ayh x bg x ah t'kilan...sbb at first mmg aq x syg lgsg dye...tpi...skit ati cmne pn ngan dye...dye jgklah yg mengubat ati yg sdih nie...
lastly...aq sedar hidup nie..tuhan ttp kn seadil2nya...allah bg kte rse gembira...allah bg kte rse cdih...spy kte thu b'syukur...xleh ah nk gembira jer sllu sbb 6t mdh lupa dri...xleh ah nk sdh jer sllu...6t x nmpk kebesrn allah...allah bg kte rse dua2...tpi t/jwb kte camne...dh perfect..adil ker ngan ape yg allah dh bg...ats kte ah 2...nk srh org tegur bru wt...smpai ble pn kte x b'ubah...perubahan kne start dri ati...bru kekal...

Hard...

susahnyer nk kjr cinta hakiki....setiap kli aq nk berubah kearah kebaikan cinta dunia mesti dtg menggu...tpi...aq hrp cinta dunia x kan hlg aq dri terus igt pd yg 1...hidup kat dunia cuma sekali...n wt mse nie aq b'syukur aq jmpe ngan org2 yg byk bwk aq ke arah yg btul..walaupn kkdg jln 2 berlubang2...sng nk jatuh...tpi ade yg sggp pimpin aq, ade yg sggp angkat aq dri kejatuhan aq...nielah anugerah yg aq sedar n syukur sgt2...sbb hidup kte kt dunia nie byk b'gantung pd org sekeliling...klu bek org yg kte jmpe...bek ah jdnyer kte 6t..n so on if we find a wrong person...aq dh pernah jmpe dua2...n aq b'syukur sgt2...sbb klu aq x jmpe yg slh..aq x kn thu yg mne 1 yg btul...
n skang aq lebih b'syukur ade yg sudi igt2kn aq pd-Nya...ade yg sudi igtkn aq akn cita2 aq...wlupn hati aq mmg bkn utk dye tpi aq syukur aq jmpe dye...wt mse nie..allah lebih thu yg t'baik utk aq...cukup ah ade yg sudi jge hal duniawi n akhirat aq...
kkdg setan byk kuasai aq..adenyer dyeorg, aq thu aq d jge n d perhati bkn sje oleh allah tpi jg org sekeliling...
tpi..i'm sorry my heart isn't for u...but for the time being i luv u...tq dear...

Final...

at last...final is started...today is the first day....first paper mmg cuak habis...smlm cm org giler x thu nk wt per...study dh x msk...last2 lepak dpn lappy tgk background desktop jer....
tpi aq mmg syukur sgt2 dikelilingi org yg syg n caring hal aq...especially abg 'm' aq...dh 3 bln x msj dyer...dpt jer msj smlm...mmg nk nangis sgt...nangis sbb windu 1 hal...nangis sbb cuak final ari nie 1 hal...nangis sbb kate2 dye yg sentiasa bg aq tujuan yg 1 utk buat ape yg aq rse btul n wt aq rse aq sentiasa btul..haha...
tpi smlm ade ah skit t'kilan ngan abg 'h' aq...dyer leh just send smiley...x dek pn wish per2 pn...tpi td bkk fb bru thu dye bz smlm...so no heart feeling ah...
tpi ade 1 p'kara yg wt aq cuak lbh dr exam final ari nie....ade abg tetiba propose aq...bkn aq x nk...tpi once u hv been my bro...the heart feeling stop there...n i thot we fine with this...sbb sethu aq...member dyer yg ske kt aq bkn dyer...nie ssh bler ade org tgh...mengalahkn drama indon..citer aq smlm...tpi...aq x nk kecewakn dye n x nk bg dyer hrpn gak...sbb hakikat yg 1 day...my parent will choose to whom i will be married...n maybe they already hv d candidate @ maybe not...
tpi klu aq dh t'ikat..aq x leh ah dh nk ushar pakwe2 len..nie yg ssh nie...haha...x per ah...klu ade jdh ader ah...
yg pntg aq nk bljr smpi kt australia dlu bru nk kawin...klu dye sggp tggu then he fine with me

All...

mggu nie mmg ltih nk mampus...
tpi mggu nie pling happening spjg 5 bln kt u nie...
to many thing happen in just a week...
assignment...markah vb aq pling truk..mmg skit ati ah ngan sir tu...bkn slh aq projek tu x nk run...klu coding aq dh btul..nk slhkn aper ag...lantak ah
programming...mmg hancur b'kecai...klh kn kaca yg jth dr roof klcc ag...mmg error yg byk...run dh sure2 x leh..if-else statement yg dh b'belitn yer...lantak ah
silat...bygkn program silat dr kul 8 pg smpi 12 mlm non stop...letih ssgt...tpisme b'baloi ble malam tu ade majlis penyampaian adiah...mmg happening...
spjg 5 bln msk silat nie first time skuad silat btul2 rapat..klu x jgn kn nk ckp..tgr pn jrg2...
lastly lesen...not bad ah..bleh handle...thu dh mne minyak, mne brek,mne class,mne gear...dri aq yg buta bab kete nie...
except..haha ade except nyer...except mse nk reverse...mmg kne gne tenaga ah ckit...bg aq yg comel nie...mmg x lrt den wok...
nk kne b'latih angkt brt nie...haha
ooo...wish me luck 4 exam k...

stop...

we will know when to stop searching...
we will know when to stop hoping...
we will know when to stop love...
we will know what we want to do...
as 4 me...
i know when to stop be kind and when to stop hope 4 things back to the way it is...
the time is now...
when i'm too tired to hope anymore...
cause i know now...
nothing will be back to normal...
once something change...
u will never get things back to the way it is...
there must be even a little changes...
even if u dont know...it must be there...
its time cause...
i'm too tired and i'm just can't hold it anymore...
too depress...too jealous...
the best reason is...it's just too long now...

way @ ways....

hurmmmm...way @ ways...ahhh...whatever....
anyway...i just realize that the best way to make we all happy,sometimes come from the hardest way but required just a little of sacrifice...the way that i just realize is...sometimes we need to stay away from the thing that make we happy the most...
as for me...i need to stay away from facebook...although...it was very2x hurt...my friend all in there...facebook is the only way for us to get in touch...to know the latest news...but...today...is the second day...i stay away from facebook...or maybe not...i'm sorry but i really can't avoid facebook...but since i hv 2 account...i will open account that my friend not even know exist anymore...just to know the latest news..not to comment @ anything....
the other way is...make ourself busy...by busy i meant really2x busy...as 4 me...the final is just around the corner...so...i can avoid any sadness by study...& it does help me a lot...i dont really hv bad mood..as long as im not alone...not thinking about any1...
oh...i also need to stay away from some1 that i know...at least some1 that can make me thing of some1 that hurt me...
another thing...i wish who ever that in love right now...u should listen to suhaimi mior latest song... the tittle is 'klu pacaran' if im not mistaken...n dont just listen...take the good thing from the song and practic it...

moody...

plik nape manusia sllu nk lepaskn moody dye pd org sekeliling...moody bkn utk dilpskn mcm org giler...klu nk lpskn moody...try ah bincang ngan org t'syg...family ker,bezfren ker, gf/bf ker...bkn lpskn moody ko dgn cre menjadikn org len pn moody....
dh ckp puas aq moody seari ari nie semata2...kate2 ko smlm...nape wak2 aq sgt2 perlukn ko...aq yg kne...aq siyes x caye klu ade org kte...dye akn syg family n kwn ndye lbh dri dye syg gf/bf dye...sbb aq x pernah nmpk ag....
dh cukup aq t'seksa ngan kenangan silam yg perit 2 dtg blik...tmbh ag...x de sape yg fhm n thu kenangan nie mmg skit...skit ssgt...
tpi...aq ttp x leh nangis ats hal nie...sdgkn seari ari nie...hati aq x pernah berhenti menangis...tpi hati...hati x de spe yg nmpk n fhm..
sedih t'igt peristiwa lps + perasaan aq yg t'sgt windukn org yg sktkn aq + kne mrh ngan bezfren sendiri = aq rse aq lyk menangis...tpi....aq x leh...
tlglh....tlg aq....aq dh x sggp klu camnie tiap2 ari...im not sure how my performance for d upcoming days...
aq ade bce...
manusia...manusia pandai berpure2
kata2...setiap bait kata yg dilafaz belum tentu melafazkn isi hati manusia
dan disebabkan kenangan lepas aq byk beljr utk m'hargai kwn
tpi malang...klu kwn x hargai ape yg aq wt
jd ape gne aq hargai kwn klu dyeorg x hargai aq...
hidup aq hanya ade 1 prinsip...
i will be nice to other as long as there is no mistake....if there is a mistake...sorry to say there is no second chance...
aq jgk bljr...
manusia boleh melafazkan kata cinta...
tapi hati & perasaannya belum tentu melafazkan yg sme
walaupn mereka kte "iklas dri sudut hati"
tpi benarkan dri sudut hati...atau hanya permukaannya shj
kerna jika permukaan...jika terkena mentari kilauannya bisa memantulkan ssu yg berbeza dri realiti....
skang...
aq akn bljr...bljr hanya mencintai keluarga dan tuhan yg esa...
kerna yg lain tidak pernah kkl abadi sprti mereka...
walau kwn walau bff walau gf/bf mereka akan b'paling bila tiba msenye...
bahagia b'cinta hanya sementara slgi hati blm b'paling..
jika hati sdh b'paling suami istri bisa berpisah lagikn pula couple

couple....

its getting weird...how a person so concern about couple...hurmmmmm....
bygkn...bdk umo 13 thn dh plik..nape dye x de gewe lg....penting ker seme 2...
persoalannya skrg...ape yg best nye sgt ngan couple...ade sape2 leh bgthu....
spjg 4 thn lps....aq ade senaraikn hurmmmm....
spjg 4 thn lps aq dh jmpe 6 kekecewaan sbb couple...
n 4 kebahagiann sbb couple...
sooo...bg aq 1 jer sbb nape ade org kate couple 2 best klu lbh byk kecewa dr bahagia...
oooo...
btw...sedih gak aq dgr cite psl...eh2...bkn dgr citer...tgk p'kmbgn...with my own eyes...
citernyer sal sorg mamat nie ske kt awex nie...siap dh declare ag...but...last2...awex nie x trime dye....what wrong with her....should appreciate org dh ske kn???
tpi ntah lah...aq x prnh alami keadaan mcm awex 2...tpi aq prnh alami keadaan mcm pakwe 2...
mmg pth hati...tuhan jer yg thu...walau kte try cover,acting steady camne skli pn...ati skt kte jer yg thu...hurmmm...
ngan member leh ah ckp besr...aq ok...no hal lah...x per,bg dye mse lu...aq redha....nk wt camne an...tpiiiii...hakikatnyer...lg byk org tanye lg skt ati yg menanggung....
klu boleh nk aje stapler mulut dyeorg an....hahaha
tpii...hidup skli beb...malu skli...klu btul2 nk...usaha jgn ah skli gak...
buat ah smpi awex 2 cair mcm ais kt pdg psr....
bru best....ntah laaa...aq nie bab jiwang kureng bab nasiht leh ah...tpi 2 pn...korg kne makesure sesuai bru ikut klu x...haiiii...mkn huru jwbnyer

Hope....

mengharap pada yang x pasti..2 mmg kerja aq dri dlu smpi skang...
jd aq rse cukup ah sekli kecewa..x perlu nk tmbh2 ag...
klu dh t'bukti hati dye mmg bkn utk aq...mmg dye dh tangkap syg kt awex dye...aq nk wt pe ag....

Appreciate....

lme x update blog aq....
bkn ape...bz ngan game fb...
just wanna share something i got from fb....
24 tanda dia mencintaimu..
Dalam kehidupan, kamu tidak sedar apa yang dilakukan oleh seseorang terhadap diri kamu merupakan satu petanda yang dia mencintai kamu. Dia tidak ingin kamu tahu secara terus daripada mulut dia tetapi dia menunjukkannya melalui perbuatan. Berikut merupakan 24 ciri-ciri yang dilakukan oleh seseorang yang menunjukkan bahawa dia mencintai kamu.

1. Orang yang mencintai kamu tidak pernah mampu memberikan alasan kenapa dia mencintai kamu. Yang dia tahu di hati dan matanya hanya ada kamu satu-satunya.
2. Walaupun kamu sudah memiliki teman istimewa atau kekasih, dia tidak perduli! Baginya yang penting kamu bahagia dan kamu tetap menjadi impiannya.
3. Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu menerima kamu apa adanya, di hati dan matanya kamu selalu yang tercantik walaupun mungkin kamu merasa berat badan kamu sudah bertambah.
4. Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin tahu tentang apa saja yang kamu lalui sepanjang hari ini, dia ingin tahu kegiatan kamu.
5. Orang yang mencintai kamu akan mengirimkan SMS seperti ‘selamat pagi’, ‘selamat hari minggu’, ‘selamat tidur’, ‘take care’, dan lain-lain lagi, walaupun kamu tidak membalas SMS nya, kerana dengan kiriman SMS itu lah dia menyatakan cintanya, menyatakan dalam cara yang berbeza, bukan “aku CINTA padamu”, tapi berselindung ayat selain kata cinta itu.
6. Jika kamu menyambut hari jadi dan kamu tidak mengundangnya ke majlis yang kamu adakan, setidak-tidaknya dia akan menelefon untuk mengucapkan selamat atau mengirim SMS.
7. Orang yang mencintai kamu akan selalu mengingat setiap kejadian yang dia lalui bersama kamu, bahkan mungkin kejadian yang kamu sendiri sudah melupakannya, kerana saat itu ialah sesuatu yang berharga untuknya. dan saat itu, matanya pasti berkaca. kerana saat bersamamu itu tidak boleh berulang selalu.
8. Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu mengingati setiap kata-kata yang kamu ucapkan, bahkan mungkin kata-kata yang kamu sendiri lupa pernah mengungkapkannya. Kerana dia menyematkan kata-katamu di hatinya, berapa banyak kata-kata penuh harapan yang kau tuturkan padanya, dan akhirnya kau musnahkan? Pasti kau lupa, tetapi bukan orang yang mencintai kamu.
9. Orang yang mencintai kamu akan belajar menggemari lagu-lagu kegemaran kamu, bahkan mungkin meminjam CD milik kamu, kerana dia ingin tahu apa kegemaran kamu – kesukaan kamu kesukaannya juga, walaupun sukar meminati kesukaan kamu, tapi akhirnya dia berjaya.
10. Kalau kali terakhir kalian bertemu kamu mungkin sedang selesema, atau batuk-batuk, dia akan sentiasa mengirim SMS atau menelefon untuk bertanya keadaan kamu – kerana dia bimbangkan tentang kamu, peduli tentang kamu.
11. Jika kamu mengatakan akan menghadapi ujian, dia akan menanyakan bila ujian itu berlangsung, dan saat harinya tiba dia akan mengirimkan SMS ‘good luck’ untuk memberi semangat kepada kamu.
12. Orang yang mencintai kamu akan memberikan suatu barang miliknyayang mungkin buat kamu itu ialah sesuatu yang biasa, tetapi baginya barang itu sangat istimewa.
13. Orang yang mencintai kamu akan terdiam sesaat, ketika sedang bercakap di telefon dengan kamu, sehingga kamu menjadi bingung. Sebenarnya saat itu dia merasa sangat gugup kerana kamu telah menggegarkan dunianya.
14. Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin berada di dekat kamu dan ingin menghabiskan hari-harinya hanya dengan kamu.
15. Jika suatu saat kamu harus pindah ke daerah lain, dia akan sentiasa memberikan nasihat agar kamu waspada dengan persekitaran yang boleh membawa pengaruh buruk kepada kamu dan jauh.
16. Dihatinya dia benar-benar takut kehilangan kamu, pernah dengar ‘jauh dimata, dekat dihati?’
17. Orang yang mencintai kamu bertindak lebih seperti saudara daripada seperti seorang kekasih.
18. Orang yang mencintai kamu sering melakukan hal-hal yang SENGAL seperti menelefon kamu 100 kali dalam masa sehari. Atau mengejutkan kamu di tengah malam dengan mengirim SMS. Sebenarnya ketika itu dia sedang memikirkan kamu.
19. Orang yang mencintai kamu kadang-kadang merindukan kamu dan melakukan hal-hal yang membuat kamu pening kepala. Namun ketika kamu mengatakan tindakannya itu membuat kamu terganggu dia akan minta maaf dan tak akan melakukannya lagi.
20. Jika kamu memintanya untuk mengajarimu sesuatu maka ia akanmengajarimu dengan sabar walaupun kamu mungkin orang yang terbodoh di dunia! Bahkan dia begitu gembira kerana dapat membantu kamu. Dia tidak pernah mengelak dari menunaikan permintaan kamu walau sesukar mana permintaan mu.
21. Kalau kamu melihat handphone-nya maka nama kamu akan menghiasi sebahagian besar INBOX-nya. Dia masih menyimpan SMS-SMS dari kamu walaupun ia kamu kirim berbulan-bulan atau bertahun-tahun yang lalu. Dia juga menyimpan surat-surat kamu di tempat khas dan segala pemberian kamu menjadi benda-benda berharga buatnya.
22. Dan jika kamu cuba menjauhkan diri daripadanya atau memberi reaksi menolaknya, dia akan menyedarinya dan menghilang dari kehidupan kamu, walaupun hal itu membunuh hatinya.
23. Jika suatu saat kamu merindukannya dan ingin memberinya kesempatan dia akan ada menunggu kamu kerana sebenarnya dia tak pernah mencari orang lain, dia sentiasa menunggu kamu.
24. Orang yang begitu mencintaimu, tidak pernah memaksa kamu memberinya sebab dan alasan, walaupun hatinya meronta ingin mengetahui, kerana dia tidak mahu kamu terbeban dengan karenahnya. Saat kau pinta dia berlalu, dia pergi tanpa menyalahkan kamu, kerana dia benar-benar mengerti apa itu cinta.

“Pernah adakah orang yang berbuat seperti di atas kepada kamu? Jika ada, jangan pernah mensia-siakan orang tersebut… Kamu akan menyesal melakukannya!

tpi...not me who didn't appreciate a boy..but..they who didn't appreciate me...
is it cause im too naive @ just cause its just a man..that who they are...
aq plik..nape dye x leh terima aq ske dye...we been fren since form4...
but then...it just cause some words...he stop being fren with me..
i'm not asking him to accept me...just wanna express my feeling...
cause i thought he'll understand me...but it was my mistake...
yet...luka 4 thn lalu x sembuh ag...dh + luka bru...
hati yg dh berdarah..di+ ag acid..pedih x yah ckp ah...
ape yg aq thu...skang aq try rpt ngan seme org utk lupakn sjrh silam...
cause life hv 2 go on....
bkn slh dyeorg n bkn slh aq gak..soooo...kte enjoy

shit.....

hari nie...dri pkul 11pg smpai pkul 6 ptg aq ddk kt dlm dewan...uruskan hal ptptn...macam gampang....beratur punye lme org yg bru dtg potong Q lak...aiii...ikut kn ati nk je aq karate sorg2...tpi x pe aq sabo ag...sbb dewan 2 sejuk...dh kul 2....aq dh hilang sabo...dah ah x solat ag...aq rembat jer basikal sape2 ntah...gne wt g blik solat lu...pastu fren aq pn dh hilang sabo...kteorg dh x beratur...men cilok jer yg mne sempat...punyer ah sakit ati...ade ah classmate aq dlu...dye nmpk aq ddk dp..dtg tgr...ckp2...pas2 nk potong Q aq lak...klu dye dtg nk potong Q tpi ddk blkg aq aq sabo ag...nie dh ah lmbt...dtg2...nk ddk dpn aq...berapi aq...org ptptn nie pn 1..x leh ker check cepat2 skit...
btw klu ade sape2 nk berurusan ngan ptptn...
1-make sure borang lengkap...x kira ko rse bende 2 penting ke x...fill in d blank jer..
2-borang sokongan makesure sume d sahkn n potong korang tulis( untuk kegunaan ptptn shj)
3-seme format A4
4-tarikh tolong tulis
5-klu salah jgn liquid n sebenarnyer x leh ade setitik pn liquid
6-klu slh ptg jer n tls yg btul n sign kecik nme korang kt tpi pembetulan korg 2
7-rmai yg silap psl cop...makesure pegawai 2 org kerajaan bkn politik n ade syarat pegawai dye..korg bce elok2
8-lastly, check pling kurang ngan 3 org dlu..bru sure btull

Eid...

yeah...the big day is just around the corner...what can i say is just i'm really greatful to be in this month n hope i can still celebrate the big day with my family this year...but we can always hope allah will decide what the best 4 us...who know i may gone 4ever b4 the big day...
i notice starting from the 1st ramadhan...i much likely 2 think about death...maybe 4 some1 its not really nice but actually its good to think about death, its make me scared to do something bad...
i also notice that although i can on9 everyday my blog is a little quiet from the update...just...when i hurt or boring then and only then my bolg is full of my hurt and my feeling...
that why my blog is a little slow...
its ok...as long as..u here i try to be strong...love u bloggg..hahaha
maybe this is the last post 4 this ramadhan so, first of all...
i think its still not late to me..to say happy fasting and happy break fast...
secondly...
happy eid fitri...may this year we get forgiveness from every1..n may we able to forgive every1...
lastly....
i want to wish u all happy eid fitri and really2 sorry if my post may hurt u all somehow...tq...for reading my blog

hurts....

its hurt everytime....seeing them seeing him....its really hurt when u luv some1 but he never know its...n most important when he telling u about his luv...
i thought they know me very well...but i guess im really an unprecictable n mystery person after all...
its getting hurt when...now he never reply my msg...he dint even remember my birthday...what else should i ask from him...if i ask him to break with her...he'll be very sad...i can't hold his sadness...maybe its time 4 me 2 let things go...
to free both of my bf to other girl..since i know i will never get both...n i will never can choose either one of them...
its will be much easier said then do it...
but...i know as long as some1 u luv din't know u luv him/her u will get reward from god...
but then..only god know how its hurt soo much...
to get a new boys in my life is the hardest thing ever 4 me...
wish him could understand this...n plezz dont test me again...
cause if the heart is hurt no1 could see it not like any other physical injury...
i may smile...i may laught...i may say anything...but the truth only me who know its

hepi bday...

yeah..hepi bday 2 me...tpi x de org wish pn.. x pe ah yg pntg aq nk iter psl bdk nie
dye nk ajk aq jmpe awek dye...tpi dye x sdr yg aq sbnrnyer ske kt dye x pe ah...sdh ah 1 ari smlm nsb aq mmg mlg nk mampus...
mood: cuak nk test math esok

Differ....

beza lmn sosial len ngan blog adalah...kt cnie aq len jd dri aq...sbb aq sure org x knl aq spe..wlupn member aq hmpr2 wt aq cuak...
blog leh tngkn fkrn aq yg tgh serabut ngan dunia realiti...sbb hakikat yg x dpt d terima adalah hakikat yg plg perit....
aq dh x thn nk tgk dye ngan dye...walupn bibir aq t'sym ngalahkn kerang busuk tpi ble aq sorg2 dyeorg jgk yg mncl...seyesly aq ckp...tuhan jer yg thu prsaan aq...sktnyer hati bler org yg kter suka suka kt org yg kter syg...
ade bdk fb aq prnh ckp"sacrifice blindly is a foolish sacrifice" tpi aq t'paksa demi kebahagian org2 yg aq syg...hdp aq byk ajr aq...biar kter derita demi org yg kter syg...
aq nie jht gak...sllu hrp dyeorg break tpi...bler nmpk dyeorg hepi aq x leh ckp aq hepi tpi...aq...rse tng tgk dyeorg t'sym...biar ah aq derita...moga2 allah hntr aq org yg lg bek dri dye...
tpi...mslh aq adalah...rmai bdk bek kt dunia nie tpi x de yg fhm aq mcm dye fhm aq...mcm mne nk bhgia bler aq asyik nk yg perfect jer kn???
hahaha
tpi bkn ker 2 yg seme org nk...org nk yg bek n org yg fhm kter melebihi sesiapa pn kt dunia nie...

mood...

skang tgh sdih ssgt...abg aq majuk ngan aq...anto msj x bls komen fb de wt bodo...sllu ok jer klu aq kutuk dye..ari nie nk touching2 lak...hish benci btul...x leh ke 1 ari klu aq x gdh ngan dyer...bosan ah ckp ssorg...nyesal lak usik dyer td klu thu dye nk majuk cmnie....
td aq menipu ag...wlupn dh janji x nk tpu ag tpi bler aq ckp x sdr pn..dh siap ckp bru aq sdr...camne ah nk jd bdk bek aq nie...
mood....sedih sssgt
abg sori ah..adik x sngaja....

migrain....

dh msk 1 bln msk u...mkin byk benda utk aq fkr...n ble dh byk benda nk fkr...dtg ah migrasi aq...hish..ubt lak tggl...pose lak 2...nk jer aq hantuk pale nie kt dinding...
selain 'pakwe' aq...blogger adalah tmpt aq luah prsaan...sbb 2 aq hrp org x knl aq saper...
aq x thu nk ckp mcm mne...aq hrp sgt mamat 'h' x lme ngan bdk 2....tpi...bler...dyeorg selisih fhm ckit...mesti mamat 'h' 2 sedih..mesti ngadu ngan aq...wlupn aq hrp dyeorg x lme tpi ble jd cmnie aq sedih sgt...x sggp nk dgr dye b'sedih...bru dgr, blum tgk muka sdih dye ag..aq x sggp sgt nk thn prsaan sdih bler dye sedih..tpi mlgnyer dye xkn thu n xkn thu...klu dyeorg break mesti dye nangis...sggp ke aq thn rse sedih dyer...nie kes klu dye happy aq merana bler dye sedih aq pn sdih...both bring me no good at all...2 perkara nie...buat aq sdih...
org kte cinta x b'makna memiliki..tpi sakit hati yg kter tanggung bknnyer org fhm...aq thu..sjk aq knl dyer since form 4 until now...hidup aq byk d kelilingi dyeorg...pusing2 dyeorg gak aq ngadu...skt ati dyer tmpt ngadu..bosan dyer tmpt kutuk...tpi ble dye bahgia aq yg merana...tuhan jer thu prsaan aq...
org sllu ckp cre nk lupakn ssorg ngan cpt ialah cri org len..tpi...aq x mampu nk cri org len bler..nk bndg org 2 ngan dyer...dyer lbih fhm aq b'bndg mne2 laki kt dunia nie..even my parent blum tentu fhm aq...
dyer time jer aq wlupn aq byk sktkn ati dyer...mmg byk aq sktkn ati dyer...aq sdr 2...kkdg dyer ngadu dyer t'rse ngan aq..tpi still perkara 2 dyer wt cm aq x pernah sktkn ati dyer...
kl ader korg jmpe spe2 yg bleh fhm aq cm dyer fhm aq..mgkn org 2 leh msk dlm list wanted aq...mood....soooo sad...

day....

another day...withoui study...argh isnin nie dh ah ade quiz math...mmg skit jiwa raga bler blik rmh...niat nk bce ade...buku 2 yg tetiba ade kaki...mcm dye melarikn dri jer dri aq...ah...
but...days at home was much more meaningfull then in the hostel...but my future is there so,by hook or by crook i hv 2 b there again...n its take ne 3 years more 2 go...long days..long week...long years..n lots 2 b discover...
bru2 nie member ade link gmbr dyeorg shuffle time skul dulu2..time aq btul2 nk msk band hardstyle n breakers but...x kesampaian...mse 2 study lgi pntg...tpi skang dpt tgk org break pn rse cm windu sgt zmn2 dlu...zmn 2 kteorg x ksh pn ape ckg. ckp...anyway ckg.disiplin pn member kamcing kteorg...jrg ah bdk kls aq kne mrh mse 2..walaupn kteorg x de bek sgt...haha...wish 2 see more hardstyle dance n breakers kt luar 6t...

fasting...

Haha...dah hari ke2 bru aq leh on9 blogger...so,aq mulakn ngan mengucapkn selamat menyambut ramadhan al-mubarak...ramadhan mengajar kte thn lpr,dahaga,nafsu, n seme niat yg x bek2... Nk share cerita b`buka ari p`tama mmg sdh...aq b`buka sesorg jer roomate ade yg blik ade yg b`buka kt surau jd tggl lh aq sesorg...klu bleh mmg nk nangis sgt ari 2.tpi nsb bek ade ex-roomate yg tmn aq n pakwe2 yg aq mmg syg smpi ble2..

Ari ke2 lak ade pakwe kte nk blnje air tpi x jd ah plk sbb kteorg ade quiz programming...psl quiz mmg ssh ssgt.rse cam fail spm x leh jwb quiz 2...tpi x pe sempena bln ramadhan nie...aq akn sbr n akn b`usaha lg utk programming..klu korg ade thu kt mne ade jual buku lthn programming tlg ah bgthu kt aq...moga2 ngan bantuan korg aq akn cemerlang dlm programming lps nie..pas2 6t aq dh wt software aq ltk nme korg.

Aq rse smpi cnie je ah dlu aq mengarot len kli dgr aq ah ag karuttan aq nie..salam n slmt b`buka

Nothing...

actually i hv nothing to say just its had been a while since my last day in blog sooo just wanna update...tggl lg 3 hari jer lg nk pose..
so..."SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK" pada semua....klu ada slh silap hrp di ampun yer...assignment byk ag x wt...programming n silat...sblm lupe..aq nk introduce kt korg 1 ag indie band..tpi yg nie special ckit sbb aq knl ahli kmplnnyer...dyeorg kwn aq...kualiti lagu dlm myspace x brpe best tpi sbnrnyer leh thn ah jgk awok2 nie...klu korg nk dgr lgu dyeorg leh ah try cri
http://www.myspace.com/theapluszsystemsejarah group nie...dyeorg just still student kt shahputra kuantan...haha...niat nk bwk genre screamo tpi blm khatam lgi ilmu 2 jd just akustik first..insyaallah klu dh siap dyorg kte dyeorg tkr genre...lirik yg jiwang2 2 sbb ahli kum tgh pts cinta..hahaha...but anyway...try listen 2 'pergi saja' n 'kali pertama' nie first lgu dyeorg ah...kre single ah nie...try ah dgr yer..
k ah nk smbg wt assignment ag nie...len kli aq p'knlkn indie band len lak, ok???

Thank god.....

alhamdulillah...2 je yg mampu aq ckp skang...walaupn lps satu..satu mslh yg dtg...tpi mslh 2 x lme...allah byk tlg aq...plg lme pn sehari ah je ah mslh nie b'thn lps 2 mesti settlenyer...x thu ag mcm mne aq leh say thank to god...aq akn b'usaha utk smbhyg pnh lps nie..nie je cre aq leh tnjkkn kesyukurn aq...
walaubagaimanapun...ada 1 mslh yg dtg...tpi x bsr ag ah...tpi aq thu ...klu aq biar kn mesti mslh nie jd mslh bsr....sbnrnya...aq rse aq x leh rpt ngan mne2 laki kt dunia nie sbb...aq cpt sgt melatah...org bru komen kt fb ckit aq dh rse org 2 ske kt aq...gasak2...luaran rock...dlmn mengalahkn aiskrim....cpt sgt cair...ade jgk org cm nie eh..hahaha..
dlu aq plig benci org yg tulis msj @ komen kt fb akhirnya mesti ada'hahaha' tpi nmpk nyer aq dh t'pengaruh....sbnrnya aq ttp benci cme aq x nk ah ade org terasa ngan ape yg aq ckp @ komen...biar je ah dyeorg anggap aq men2 wlup sbnrnya aq bnr2 mkskn sstgh perkara 2...
hari nie aq nk share...psl sujud syukur(jap aq cri..aq pn x thu..nie ah kebaikn blog...aq ajr smbl bljr) n handle with care(fav indie band aq skang)...
Rukunnya sujud syukur ialah :
1. Berniat untuk sujud syukur
2. Membaca takbiratul ihram, ketika sujud
3. Satu kali sujud(*“Subhana Rabbiyal A’la wabihamdih” sebanyak tiga kali.)
bacaan yg digalakkan..x bce pn x pe
* “Allahumma laka sajadtu, wabika amantu walaka aslamtu sajada wajhiyalillazi halaqohu wasowwarahu wasyakkahu sama’hu wabasorahu bihaulihi waquwwatihi tabarakallahu ahsanul hooliqiin.”

* “Subbuhun quddusan rabbuna warabbul malaikatu warruh.”


4. Memberi salam sesudah duduk


handle with care..korang leh cri sal band nie lbh detail kt fb @ Myspace: http://www.myspace.com/handlewithcaremy
serba sedikit psl dyeorg yg len bce sendiri

Handle With Care is an independent pop punk band based in Petaling Jaya. The band consists of Faisal Yusof on vocals and bass, Andy Seah and John Paul Pacaldo on guitars, and Abdul Musowir a.k.a. Moose on drums.

Everthing went wrong.....

stress tol...dh ah keje x smpt nk save laptop jap...dh hlg ttk pluh 3 jam aq...mmg stress
mlm nyer plak...kte ada p'jmpaan kor silat ble aq g x de lak....dye igt aq aper...tggl ke nk tggu dye 1/2 jam...bek aq blik solat lg bek...klu thu buang mse aq td aq x trn dh leh ngaji...dh ah nk pose dh...khatam x aq al-quran...1 ramadhan 6t nk start blik...moga2thun nie aq smpt khatam dlm bln ramadhan...thun lps nyer smpai juzud 12 je rse nyer....
korg tlg doakn aq yer....
kt cnie nk ah jgk aq share ckit sbyk p'kara yg snt kte wt dlm bln ramadhan....(yg aq thu je ah)
antaranya:-
1.mengaji/b'tadarus
2.solat terawih
3.buat makan2
3.bykkn ddk kt masjid
4.zikir
especially, 10 ari t'akhir...tpi cdgn aq...sblm msk bln ramadhan nie moga2 kte wt ah solat sunat taubat lu...spya...6t kte lbh khusyuk...
tpi aq thu org zmn skang ramai bz, x smpt nk wt seme nie...t'msk ah aq...
tpi kte kne igt...berapa lme ah sgt kte nk idup...klu tuhan tarik nyawa kte skang x ke t'kilan..berapa byk je yg kte wt yg leh kte bwk...yg len tggl utk family...
tpi...x prnh ke korg t'pkir klu family korg dh sng 6t mgkn dyeorg mls b'usaha tpi korang smpai mati keje utk dyeorg n dyeorg sesng habiskn harta dyeorg...b'serdahanalah keje 2...
aq pn bz study n keje...tpi ble aq pkir blik..bek aq ibadat lu bru sng keje aq
x slmenyer kter ssh n x slmenyer kter sng...
aq dh prnh rse 2...n miskin 2 lbh byk kebaikn dri kekayaan....
len kli aq cter naper aq story cam nie....
TPI IGT AH PSN AQ....BKN NK DAKWAH...SBB AQ PN BKN BEK SGT...AURAT TUNJUK GAK...TPI JUST NK SHARE..MOGA2 KTER SME2 JD ORG YG BEK

wrong.....

everything was went wrong since 2.30 pm.....now i really stress n sad....
maybe i saw he write he <3 his hunnybunny @ maybe its my pms....
but still its change the whole day..
everything seem wrong to me...
k lahh...x mood nk ngadu pn bkn ade org dgr sgt...
just to whoever read my blog pray for my happiness plezzzzz...tq..luv u guys

Programming???

programming is harder everytime...
i feel really empty right now...
feel like to stay at home n hang out....
feel like wanna quit study...
something really missing...
but im not sure what it is...
i should make myself buzy...
the one i hopeto ,3 already hv gf...
its hurt but not as hurt as the empty i feel right now...
need somebody to on9...
need 2 talk to someone...
but just talk with 'him'...
its doesn't help...
help me...
find what is i missing...

False........

aq igt bljr kom plg sng...hambik ko ble diri sendiri yg bljo...rse nk pch otak aq mikir psl programming...sek bek ade 'pakwe' same kos klu x lg blur aq....sbnrnyer sje bkk blog sbb windu sgt kt blog aq...windu ssgt...nk share some hepi news....aq dh dpt blik kwn2 aq.....bahagia sgt aq skag....rse cam syukur giler2 dpt knl dyeorg....klasmate pn best...haha

wonder....

just wonder....what make us happy???
just wonder....can we live alone????
just wonder....why we always have problem???
just wonder....what is the real meaning of true friend???
just wonder....can a friend be a friend if they fall in love???
just wonder....why we all very proud to have a couple???
just wonder....can we live 4ever with some1 we <3???
just wonder....why we never stop find happiness that always infront of us???
just wonder....why is there a politic since it make us apart???
just wonder....will we ever be thankful 4 the hard we been through???
just wonder....did lost make us suffer or happy???
just wonder....how many time we ever think b4 we act???
just wonder....is a pet is a must???
just wonder....did rich @ poor make us differ???
just wonder....what will happen if we did not make 1 of any decision we ever made???
just wonder....will we be the same if we make another choice???
just wonder....why there is a road less taken???
just wonder....did a fairy tale is originaly maintain since its been pass???
just wonder....how long will we be able to live???
just wonder....did we a good child to our parent???
just wonder....when will we be able to stop wonderring and try to find the anwser???
i know i will not try to find the anwser......why???...b'cause it make me realise im not perfect...but if u what to find the anwser...u better start looking now!!!!!

scared????

aq tgh tkt ats 2 bnde...first utk operation aq esok...second utk msk u.....tpi yg aq plik nape dye bkk profile aq je....sdgkn dye dh ade awex....bygkn dye sggp on9 fb n just look at my profile...tpi x thu ah klu 2 kbtln jer...ape yg pntg...klu ade yg bce post nie...tlg doakn kjyaan aq utk esk

what....

apa nie......wlupn aq dh dpt u....tpi....u yg aq x hrp...aq igt nk msk uitm tpi...len lak yg aq dpt....walaupn still dlm pilihn aq...tpi aq ltk yg last skli...still gak aq x hrp sgt dpt...aq nk g jauh dri sni tpi nmpknya kne still kt phg ag ah....arghhhh...nk nangis rse....anyway hrp dpt jmpe org yg sekepala ngan aq kt u 6t....arghhh aq nk blik KT....all my fren was there...hlg mood aq nk ngadap laptop lelama

addicted....

aq rse aq dh addicted ngan hwc...aq x thu nape...tpi bler dgr sore dyeorg trs hlg seme mslh aq....terbang melayang....best giler ah group dyeorg...aq bru sdr kt mlysia byk giler indie band...so since aq nyer blog name blackindieugly...aq akn try selit skit2 psl indie band nie...
bkn ape...aq skt ati bler...band dri luar sng2 dpt wt show kt ngre kte tpi...band kte blh kte 1 dlm 10 band je yg leh wt show kt ngre luar...sdgkn kualiti band kte lg best dri band dyeorg....tpi aq noticed skang nie...dh byk jgk band kte g luar ngre....cme kte x thu...ade yg famous kt luar ngre dri ngre sendiri cam zee avi,bunkface,hujan,lydias diery....cam bunkface n hujan...leh kte its impossible org kter x knl spe dyeorg...tpi sbtulnyer dyeorg dpt lg byk show kt luar dri kt mlysia sendiri.....sbb pe...sbb..org kter bkn ske sgt labur duit support local band...stkt byr rm 150 dyeorg kte mhl, tpi klu tokio hotel sggp lak dyeorg byr rm250...aq plik btul ngan org kter....agung kn sgt band luar bkn nyer dpt faedah....
citer psl faedah nie....israel...semggu 2 nie hari2 kter dgr psl kkjmn dyeorg...tpi dh lumrah...dh d tulis islam akn klh lu sblm bgkt n berjaya....aq ade ckp ngan kwn aq...psl p'kara nie n dye kte klu islam mng 2 yg kte ptt takut..sbb 2 tandanyer nk kiamat sgt2 dh...jd p'soalannyer...mne lg tkt kemenangan islam @ kekalahan islam...itu ats iman seseorg utk tntukn...
bkn nk kte ah tpi aq pn x smpurna...solat pn b'lobang...tpi stkt nie...aq cbe utk jdi yg t'baik...cme bab derhaka n x ngan mak aq 2 aq x leh kwwl....mmg dri kcl aq ske m'jwb...aq sendiri x sdr ape yg aq ckp leh skitkn ati mak aq....jd....im trying to be perfect...walaupn no body perfect

its fated....

at last....return crew kne kluar gak....at first aq igt famous crew yg akn kuar...skli ble battle dyeorg hbt sgt....and again...gbc mmg kne ubah attitude korg...sllu nk kuang ajar ngan lwn korg....even the battle is over but still u guys want to show off....but u guys mmg best...just watch out wit the attitude....x b'makna korg b-boy hbt korg leh b'lgk...let it ah..bkn tu aq nk citer....
td aq add 1 blog...(about me...)...its good to know men also get hurt when get break...so...aq try ah nk komen but....x leh n i dont know why...bru nk share some thought...anyway x de jodoh kot...hahaha...
but seriusly...ape dye ckp mmg btl..jeles gler bler tgk org ade kapel...n still aq duk tggu mamat "h" tu...sbnrnyer x ah tggu sgt just nk thu brpe lme dyeorg leh b'thn....the truth is i miss my friend soooooo...much...wish they could give me some time...and...klu lh aq dpt pth blik zmn skul men dlu mmg best...kt c2 ah aq knl rempit...shuffle..breaking...n i know some friend....thought it would be the real friend but maybe not...just need some company right now..hahaha...it funny when ur enemy/ ex bf is all u need right now when u just hate him sooo..much

shit....

aq igt aq x kn t'rse dh klu aq dpt thu dyeorg kapel blik; tpi mmg aq tgh skit ati sgt2 skang nie....lg skt ati dri kne p'main oleh mamat 'a' 4 thn dlu....time2 nie aq sgt butukan mamat 'a'...cme dye yg sllu ske sktkn ati aq...aq rse cam cme dye yg fhm aq...sdgkn hakikatnyer dye yg plg x fhm aq....tpi saat2 cam nie aq nk percaya ape yg aq percaya je bkn kbnrnnyer...tpi nape, kwn2 aq dh x endahkn aq...bkn sorg tpi semenyer...jd skang aq btul2 dh x de kwn...bkn je laki pompuan pon...nape???!!! ape slh aq sbnrnyer...aq sgt2 nk nangis skang nie..tpi llps 4 thn lps aq dh x blh nagis ats hal2 b'kaitn laki n kwn ag...setiap kli aq nk nangis sbb kwn n laki...peristiwa d p'main oleh kwn yg plg aq hrp n percaya dh buat aq...lgi sng aq leh kte air mate aq dh kering...tpi..smpi ati dyeorg kapel x brthu aq...@ mgkn slh aq sbb ske pd org yg x mgkn ske kt aq.....tpi dye kte aq bezpren dye...tpi nmpknyer mcm musuh dyelah...aqlah org last yg thu ape2 hal sal dye....argh...aq btl2 nk nangis n perlukn kwn skang nie....i wish ade org ske aq n sedia dgr aq skang nie...n x kn tggl aq....even mak aq pn dh x syg aq skang nie...maybe aq should just be a new person...aq pttnyer lbh........ntah aq x thu...
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smbgn BLUR...

When I in standard three, I have been taken care by my aunty. My parent take me to my aunty care because, I love to fight with my little brother. Since my aunty really wants a daughter, so they give me instead of my brother. At first, it hard to me to adapt to the new environment and the language. Since I was a baby I been take care by my parent, we live in Pahang, we speak either broken English or Malay. And I never been taught the Terengganu dialect even, my parent are Terengganu’s and even I’m too. I still remember the first question I ask my grandmother after my parent leave me and headed back to Pahang.” Nenek, kenapa ibu ngan ayah tinggal along kat sini, dyeorg dah tak saying along lagi ke?” My grandmother just smile and say, “ nanti dyeorg datang lah lagi hujung bulan ni” At that time just one thing cross my mind, all the chicken was dirty. Because I never really want the answer and I just looked at all the chicken my grandmother have. Its take me a couple of day before I meet a new friend, Alifash, we are classmate but I don’t recognized her but she do. She even asked me to play with her. She asked me to bring along a bicycle but I don’t have it. So I ride with her. We go to her house; there I find a new job and a new experience of a lifetime. It make me realized how different village and a city. How their job, how their respect to each other, how they spend most of their time and how they make us thankful to be here…to be with each other, to help and to share our joy together. There, I also learn how to cut the ‘keropok’ for sale, how to canting the batik before it’s been soak in warm water. I even make batik from the design until it had to be dried. I even get paid for those amazing job. Although, it just one ringgit for two job but it was more than enough to me. Right after we finished our job, we all go for a play in the lagoon. Alifash, and his brother and his fried we’re joined us to the lagoon every day. We climb a tree to see her brother and his friend playing football. It’s true that football is an international game, we can see it been played everywhere.

w.t.h.....

ari nie aq ade amali kete, sbnrnye amali spttnyer 6 jam...3 jam ceramah...lg 3 jam kte bljr psl kete 2...tpi aq nyer amali.....3 jam ceramah...lg 3 jam lepak kt pmc...rse mcm org giler lpk kt pmc 3 jam....tpi nsb bek gak...x pyh aq peluh2 cbt tyr kete 2...dh ah pns terik ptg td....
lme dh aq x tgk org rempit...igtkn skang org dh x men rempit2....mse aq form 1-3 dlu sllu ah lpk ngan bdk2 rempit mmdgkn dyeorg bdk kls aq je...tpi..ble seme pn dh smbg bljr n port rempit kt snie ade org dh accident mati...aq igtkn dh abih ah zmn org men rempit.tpi...ptg td ade ag org rempit mmg best....tpi rempit nie under mjls belia dn sukan jd...x slh ah...
dh dua msj aq dpt psl srh blok fb sbb fb nie pangkalan israel...tpi....x smpi ati...bkn sng nk jmpe member lme..kt fb je ah...lgpn klu btl nk blok israel...bkn stkt fb byk ag brg israel yg kte gne...henset, mknn,mnmn, so...just take the right decision...just jgn kte skong ape yg dyeorg wt ckp....klu hanye melibatkn agama rmi pihk x nk msk cmpr... tpi skang...ble melibatkn ngre kte kne bkk mata jgn smpi dri kte d tnds kte x sedar ag..skang sbg 1malaysia...x kre agama,bangsa kte spptnye sme2 b'doa agr israel d bls ats p'buatannye...
tpi aq plik ah israel nie...mcm mne dye still bleh b'kuasa sdgkn skrg seme ngre tgh kecam dye...dlu...lggr janji gencatan senjata...skang serng kapal x b'slh...siap tuduh kte srg dye dlu ape hal yop...sdr dri...x sllu israel kt ats...smpi mse 6t...ko rse ah derita org yg ko tnds tu....

anyway psl...novel...6t aq update ag

miss u....

oh...who i miss u blog...really3x miss u...sejak aq sbk kt kedai n pc aq rsk seme p'kara dh jd normal blik....aq x thu samada aq pt rse hepi @ skt ati tpi serius ckp dyeorg x m'jadi....aq igt rse hepi akn aq rse tpi lps thu rse skt ati lg byk...bkn pe sggp dye wt main kn kwn aq...rse b'slh pn ade dye org break....ah dh ah cite psl mamat'h' tu....skang aq nk tunai janji psl novel tu....
tpi cite psl novel nie....aq bkn penulis n aq sllu dpt b dlm essay n krgn bm jd aq x lyk nk di pggl seorg sasterawan jd bhse aq gne broken eng. bkn sbb aq nk b'lgk tpi bi result bi aq lg bek dri result bm aq jd sbb 2 aq gne broken eng...lgpn aq x nk adik aq bce...jd sori ah klu novel aq x best.
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BLUR...
Even though, the time when I was a child had pass me more than a decade but the memory is still crystal clear in my mind. I don’t know why some of those memory does not gone from my mind even I have a short term memory but those memory…let just say…they are really naughty. Or maybe it is because, there I meet the name of friend and maybe love or maybe not. Some of those memory like when I in standard one…I meet something that we called it as a friend… I don’t know…just a blink I got a new friend…her name is Araf. I like her name it was so unique. We are like a bff…we go to lunch together, playing together, holding hand and the best part is we never see each other before even we are neighbor. There, I also meet my first crush…my first David Archuleta… but unfortunately I don’t remember his name…but one thing I remember the most about him is that…he love to sleep in the class just like me...and we even sit next to each other. I remember the incident when teacher do her job, teaching, we are sleeping. We actually sit the first row that meant in front of the blackboard and the teacher. But we are just a naïve student or maybe we just a really lazy student. What should we aspect the teacher will do, let us sleep or woke us up. The answer is B. She woke us with a cotton bud. At first she uses it to korek our nose and I woke…but he doesn’t. So she changes it to the ears and he woke up. The whole class was laughing to him, including me. Why? The expression rights after he woke that make us laughing…his eyes were red and air liur basi was all over his uniform. He even cries that the teacher woke him up from his beauty sleep. However, I think he had move away when we are in standard two. Because when I try searching for him I can’t find him. Or maybe he still in the last class but in standard two I was in the first class. Amazing isn’t? From the last class to the first class. Nope, actually the classroom is small and don’t fit a lot of student. So, I have to sit in the last class since I don’t go to the kindergarten that the school provided but I go to the kindergarten that a port provided because my father works in the port. But, it seem that even you are in the last class, even the way we been teach is different from the first class as long as you want to success, it can happen.
( TO BE CONTINUED)

confuse......

sorry 4 not keep my promise 2 write a novel but...my mind is'nt really well these few day...what should i do??? i miss both of my bff....but then i still hurt with them.
org kte klu windu2 sgt 6t bleh meroyan.....aka...gila. tpi aq mkn lme rse mkn nk mrh je kt bdk2 2.....tlg ah phm aq....x kn sbb ko ade awex korg dh x lyn aq...hello....org len pn ade awex gak elok je lyn aq.....aq just hope.....korg spend mse utk aq ckit je....aq just hope kte leh brk2 cam dulu...kte leh chatting...n msg mcm dlu2...tpi skang jgn kn nk anto msj.....nk komen aq kt fb pn korg dh x sggp.....aq x thu ah klu aq ade wt slh ke apeker...just.....klu aq ade wt slh plis bgthu......aq bknnyer phm sgt korg...at least x phm korg skang...@ maybeaq yg sllu slh phm ngan korg......

arghhhhh...sial...aq x thu ape ag nk wt...klu dlu aq gaduh ngan roomate aq aq leh kol korg....tpi kes 2 x ssh skang...skang..aq sllu gaduh ngan mak aq tpi stiap kli aq igt nk kol ko nk mntk tngkn aq....aq tkt korg dh x sggp dgr mslh aq...aq tkt korg cite kt awex korg....so skang x de sape dh nk dgr aq....even my parent.....

i just need some1 to take ur part n i hve found a girl...she is 1 of my bff but then she can't make me relax n calm...just u guys....plis..ape ag nkwt nie...blog pn cam dh x leh tlg aq.....so plis some1 just give me an advice at least.....

still the same......

thank god blog is here....ntah lah aq rse cam org bodo m'hrpkn bulan jth ke riba sdgkn aq thu klu bln jth ke riba aq nk kiamat ah 2 jwbnyer.....tpi x pe ah ksh sdh aq, aq nk ianya b'akhir di cnie....biarlah kte derita dlm kebahagian org len jgn kte bhgia dlm derita org len...lgpn...dye dh byk wt baik ngan aq dh tiba mse aq bls semenyer...klu elkkn dri adalah sstu yg dye mintak dri aq..then dye akn dpt bende 2 dri aq.....smge dye dpt bhgiakn kwn aq 2....smge dye success sllu ngan ep dye ngan kumpln musik dye 2....

i guess its time 4 me to look 4 some1 to be able to take him away from my mind....so....i decide to write a novel...not to be sale but to be read by every1 for free...since i does not really like to spend my money on novel so let save urs...at least we can use it 4 othr emergency situation......

how about its was about some1 that always have a bad luck on love just like me...n some adventure....n some family conflict...with some dream...n fantasy....its will be some from my experience n some from the imagination n tv....
i will start it tonight with the draft first maybe...or maybe not...
i was thinking how about some cartoon to cheer things up...n release my tension at least...i'm sure its not that beauty but...its just cartoon that nice to see....but it may look alike kaoru @ maybe zint creation @ maybe look like me....so here i wold like to ask 4 approvel from kaoru & zint....(ooooo...its ok...taht meant u buy our book...so i give u the right to copy...from zint & kaoru...).....muahahahaha...arigato....i will buy more comic from both of u...muahahaha(glk mcm org jht x cool...-fairy oddparent cartoon-

why....

nape ngan bezpren2 aq...ble msg2 dh ade psgn msg2 mcm aq nie x prnh wujud je....
sdgkn...aq yg knlkn dyeorg tpi dyeorg lyn aq camnie lak....dh lah skrg adalh saat2 yg aq sgt butukn mereka tpi knp leh jd camnie....

ok...aq trima klu dyeorg x de mse nk msj aq...so..aq msj dyeorg...tpi still dyeorg x bls....sdgkn msj org len leh lak dye bls.... aq dh rse dri aq nie cam perigi cari timba lak...pdhl dyeorg just kwn aq....tpi lg trk dri org yg x prnh knl aq....

at least org yg x knl aq...aq anto msj 100% blsnyer ah...tpi dyeorg jgn kn nk bls...aq skt ke msk hospital ke blm tentu nk tanya kabo jgnkn nk jenguk.... rse cam org bodo lak ngadu kt blog tpi k wt camne klu dulu leh ah ngadu kt dyeorg...tpi skang dye org pn x de mse nk bls msj aq nikn plk nk dgr aq ngadu....

dulu sblm ade couple...."x pe klu ko ade ape2 brthu aq mne thu aq leh tlg...ktekn bff" tpi blm pn aq ade mslh bsr blm pn aq mintk duit ke ape ke...bru dyeorg ade couple...dh tgk aq mcm aq nie invisible....org camnie layak ke nk pggl kwn...

maybe ah aq x perfect at least...i try my best to help them wlupn mse 2 aq sndiri ade mslh...walupn mse 2 aq bz nk pekse....tpi x pe 4 my bff...org kte duit leh cri... tpi kwn sejati sekali seumur hdp...so...aq hargai dyeorg sebaik2nye.... time dyeorg bsn aq tmnkn...wlupn kul 3 pg....dyeorg x de kedit aq tlg topupkn wlupn aq sndiri sengket duit...tpi nape still dyeorg lyn aq camnie...

aq ade bce... mslh yg dtg pd kte...adalh ujian dri allah atas dosa yg kte lkukn...mmg aq sedar aq mmg byk wt dosa...n dosa2 di wt ngan sengaja...tpi...klu nie ah sbgi topup dosa2 aq...aq x thu smpi ble lg aq leh thn....aq mmg jenis org pns baran tpi...
aq x thu nape utk kwn2 aq, thp ksbrn aq jauh lbh tinggi dri yg aq sangka kn....

tpi...maybe gak sbb couple dyeorg lg bek dri aq sbb 2 dyeorg lg sygkn couple dyeorg dr bff dyeorg...mksdnye ade 1 kenyataan yg b'bunyi" org lelaki sllunya lebih pntgkn kwn mereka dr keluarga mereka", kenyataan 2 x btl...sbb..bru couple blm pn jd bini dyeorg dh sggp tgglkn kwn dyeorg....@ maybe kenyataan 2 x leh pkai utk dyeorg je kot....

abis seme bnde aq tls kt blog nie...lega ckit rsenye....tpi lg lega klu ade org yg phm aq...ade org yg sggp jd bhu aq lg saat aq nk nangis...sbb skang aq dh hlg part 2.... mmg camnie ke hdp...x pernah nk sng...2 aq jer yg ambk bende nie ssh2...sdgkn kt luar sne ada lg org yg sme nsb ngan aq..tpi dye take it easy...maybe x kot...sbb aq x prnh dgr ade org wt rungutn psl bff dyeorg...sbb once bff, 4ever bff....maybe dyeorg bkn bff sbnr aq..maybe aq should keep looking 4 my bff to arrive.... x sgka aq igtkn seme bende aq leh take easy on it but its seem that, finding a good friend is the hardest thing in the world that may be happen to me, although i'm a friendly person but maybe its not enough.....please....i ned some motivation 4 this situation...

weird.......

weird...ble org yg ktew hrp msj kte,syg kte x plk wt cam2....org yg kte x hrp n mmg x nk lak sbuk nk take care kter....pening3.....

now...sure my boypren couple with my freind....jd normal ke bg aq rse jeles sdgkn aq yg knlkn dyeorg n b'ia2 sgt nk suh dyeorg couple tpi ble dh jd real aq jeles lak.....

maybe sbb ko jeles boypren ko 2 x msj ko dh x????maybe ah...tpi...nape dye mcm nk elak kn dri dr aq bkn aq nk mrh pn dye couple ngan kwn aq 2 just...maybe aq kutuk ah dye ckit...tpi dye spttnye ucap trimas kt aq bkn wt bodo camnie....

aq igt dye dh phm aq lps lbh 3 thn kte org kwn...but i guess not kot...pompuan mmg ssh nk phm laki...apa ag laki nk phm pompuan...pah ceroh ah dyeorg x kn phm

Its sucks....

mmg trk ble pakwe kte kne kebas ngan kwn bek kte...pas2 pakwe 2 leh wt x knl lak kt kte...cdih nyer aq...dah ah result giler babi nyer teruk....ntah ape aq nk jd nie...arghhhhh...aq still x leh trime pakwe aq sendiri merangkap bezpren aq sendiri wt aq camnie...nmpk nye lah aq nie x pntg dlm hdp dyeorg...aq x on9 fb 3 mggu x de sorg pn tnye...tmbh lak ngan mak aq blebe...mahu je aq bnh diri klu iman x kuat...tpi insyaallah aq akn sabo...tq to blog at least ada gak tmpt aq ngadu....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

td ex aq msj dye nie x thu ke kslhn dye kt aq yg dye wt 4 thn lps aq still igt n its mean pengalamn 2 sgt trk...smpi aq x leh lupe...tpi aq bls gak msj dye...sbb wak2 camnie aq mmg perlukn ssorg...tpi mlgnye len org yg aq hrp len yg dtg....

why aq sllu bad luck dlm b'cinta....giler ah...ah...x nk cite psl bende jiwang nie dh....aq nkcite psl..pg td...

aq dh start ambk lsn kete ari nie...first kne dgr ceramah kpp..mmg bosan gler....aq siap leh tdo g...hahaha..dpt jmpe kwn bru not bad ah..klu aq t'cmpk ke u jauh2 leh gak aq msk ngan kwn2 nie...

anyway hdp x prnh sng klu kte pkr dye ssh so......, just thing about the happines in live...n b'syukur ah kte msh hdp

At last....

akhirnya aq dh kembali normal....dh x de feeling toward anyone....especially my bezfren..yg pntg today mothers day...my mum lak x mntk pe2 adiah...sek bek save wit aq...

tpi aq still curios klu roomate aq kapel ngan bezfren aq...dh ah aq kesunyian skang...pakwe aq lak kne kebas mmg rezab ah...ble hdp aq nk jd normal...stkt perasaan aq je normal still x btl nie...

argh...p'setankn ah dyeorg dye dh jd penyanyi skang mne lyn dh org cam aq...mesti cri kwn yg leh naik kn group dye...smpi aq anto msj pn x bls...maybe x de kedit..tpi klu aq ajk chat kt fb pn nk mengelak lupakn je ah ko bezfren aq...bodo ah ade kwn camnie skt tol ati aq...heh

Long missing....

dh brpe ari aq x update blog nie same goes with fb....tpi x de org prsn pn...
nmpklah aq nie x pntg lgsg...tpi sbnrnye slh aq gak...prsaan aq nie sllu b'cmpr2...
pening ah ble kte jth cinta pd bezfren kte...wlaupn aq dh brthu byk kli kt dyeorg yg aq ske dyorg tpi mlgnye dyeorg igt aq ske dyeorg just like a friend. pening ah camnie....

jd ada beknye jgk aq g smbg study kt australia...at least aq x jeles klu dyeorg couple ngan org len pn...sbb aq yg tgglkn dyeorg...tpi aq x rela nk tgglkn ikan aq n roommate aq...aq still hrp aq dpt jmpe ngan roomate aq...tpi klu dh aq g study australia camne aq nk jmpe dyeorg...

plus, aq rse roommate aq skang nie tgh b'cinta ngan bezfren aq 2....lg lh png pale aq...aq x nk d sbbkn perasaan aq...aq n roommate aq jeles sesama sendiri...lg 1...ble aq hrp my first luv dtg pd aq...dh merata tmpt cri pn x jmpe...klu x nk dlu...setiap saat ada kt cc aq...arghhhh...bodo btul....

Is this the feeling.....

ntah ah...nie first time aq betol2 rse jeles ngan dye.....all my bezpren jd bezpren dye gak....bknnye bende 2 x bek just that i dont feel comfortable ngan perkara nie... tpi slh aq gak..x spptnya timbul rse jeles dri aq...klu kte syg org 2 kte mesti rela lpskn dye x kira berapa ssh skli pun...tpi setiap kli aq sedia lpskn dye...dye dtg blik kt aq...skt ati aq....dye lak leh wt x thu perasaan aq...or maybe mmg dye x thu...tpi yg dye bodo sgt nape....aq dh brthu dye perasaan aq lbih dr 3 kli...klu dye x fhm jgk mmg aq sndiri no komen ah...tpi ikut logik ah beb..no way dye x fhm perasaan aq ag.......argh stress ah aq...

lgi ah aq stress ble dgr blik lagu mamat'H'....nmpk sgt dye ske kt pompuan 2....n i just wish some1 will love me as much as he love that girl...nyanyi lgu org artis len pn dh ok..x yah ah mcm dye smpi sggp wt lagu utk pompuan 2...tpi mlgnya x d hargai....i really want to be in love but then the trauma still dont want to go....really i wish the song was made 4 me...or its just easily said that i wish my bezpren hve some time to be spend to me....

slh 1 cra aq utk lri dri poblem nie....study overseas......skang pn tgh cri scholarship yg best2...klu dpt mmg best....
first...aq dpt bljo cara hidup org len
second..aq dpt melawat tmpt org
third...aq dpt lri dri masalah nie
fourth..aq dpt lpekn prsaan aq yg cam shial nie..asyik jeles x b'tmpt....
fifth...aq leh thu spe yg windu...klu ade mksdnye aq nie pntg ah jgk

aq btl2 pening...nape ble bab hati dan perasaan aq cpt jd deprese...aq cpt sgt melatah klu bab nie...kn best klu dri dlu aq terima je mamat 'S'...mesti perasaan aq x jd camnie...b'cmpr baur...

anyway thank to blog....aq dpt krgkn stress d kepala nie.....

Huhuhu.....

ari nie kedai ttp awl...kul 1 dh ttp...leh lpk kt umh...
bezpren aq dh jd artis skang..tpi nme bkl ank aq pn ade kt c2....kuat ttul instict aq ngan dye....

g pantai...lme gler dh x g pntai....dpt lpk 2 jam kt pantai...mmg syok..
jumpa lak ular air masin...sek bek dh mati...n sek bek ank je ag..
bhye gak pntai rmh aq nie...hermmm

after more than a week kt umah..at last leh gak aq mkn ikn kerapu sweet sour...syok abisssss
yg lg syoknyer org banje...seme pn aq balun...pdhl dh nk ch prt pn...tpi x bek m'bzrkn

Whoooaaa...

today...more sleep..dkt 4 jam gak ah tdo...mmg gmpk giler...
pkl 2 ade interview upsi n usm...mmg cuak giler
tpi...soklan cam shial jerrr..300 soklan asyik ulg bende sme...pning pale aq

blik dri interview g lpk bdr...best..lme dh x g lpk kt bndr..
blik dri bndr tlg mak aq...siap gaduh ag

still gaduh ngan bezpren aq...skit ati lah dye 2...
nyesal aq ngku dye pakwe aq...
arghhhhhhh.........

Blurrrr...

Nothing special today...just more sleep n chatting...with mybf gf..amazing is't?
td ade org tanye psl nasi kukus tpi mak gue x msk nasi kukus...dh t'lps 11 rm..rugi2
lps 2 mk aq trus wt...tpi x de org lak nk bli m'bzr jer...last2 sendiri mkn

Whoooaaa...

ari nie...byk tdo jerrr...maybe letih sgt smlm..2 yg topup tdo ari nie..
tpi...pg2 lg dh ader customer...mak aq punyer lh panik abis seme getah b'terabur..
rmai yg bngks jer ade 4 org jer dtg mkn...jd sepupu yg tlg wt air 2 kne wt air 2 gls jer..punyerlh frust dyerrr...

lps kul 5.30 mak aq pn pg ah ambk adik kt kafa..sdg elokk..ada pelanggan dtg...cuak gler aq...dh ah lelaki..2 org lak 2...
prsaan nyer tuhan jer yg thu..tpi aq maintain je...dh ah tkt sbb dyeorg dak laki plus lg aq x pndai wt airrr..mmg tkt giler ah wak2 2..tpi seme b'baloi lps dyeorg blah ngan bayaran sbyk 2.50..sbb dyeorg mnm bandung jer..hehehe...
nasi kukus x e org beli pn..last2 kteorg jer yg abiskn..gmk blik ah aq camnie..

bapak aq leh wt bodo ag aq kte nk bli ikn...dh dye nk wt bodo nk wt camne...redha je la...

New adventure n looked up

last night...lps d provoted byk kli oleh member2 aq...aq pn bkk youtube cri psl the arrival..first thing aq fkr...nape cite nie d wt oleh org eng...sdgkn ngre dyeorg bape kerat je yg islam...tpi ngre kite yg bbge sgt ngre islam aq tgk skang mkn byk wt site maksiat...tpi x pe ah, aq time je...org eng ke org melayu ke kte seme islam n niat nk btlkn org islam...aq bru tgk part 1,,,tpiiiiii tu pn separuh. separuh pn dh ckp wt aq sdr byk bende...t'igt solat yg b'lubg2 ntah ble nk berubh...aq caye abis khatam the arrival nie maybe aq insaf utk sebln dua lps tuuuu..mesti tggl lg solat..but..aq nk berubh pas nie aq x nk dh tggl solat..sbb lps nie aq akn wt kalendar kt blog nie spyee seme org dpt tgk...bru pdn muka aq..abis cite psl the arrival tuuu...esok aq cite ag..jap2 hri nie aq tgk smbgn dye tetiba ada 1 video kte cite the arrival nie byk yg dh d olah blik...jd..mne 1 yg btl nieeee

ari nie start bkk kedai..not bad..ada ah jgk yg dtg..tpi rmainya jiran2 je...tpi ada ah sorg dua yg bkn jiran dtg...cukup ah..aq lak bkn jjd cashier pn sbk jge ank sepupu..tpi hepi ape dh lme x men baby...bestttt..lmbt gak ah ttp ptg td..dkt kul 5 bru ttp...pastu straight pegi bando....

mulanya bapak aq kte nk bli kn ikan hiasn utk aq last2 leh wt bodo jer...frust giler gue...tpi x pe sbb dye msk megi utk aq..ayh wt megi mmg the besttttttt

Smile that never lost...

dh msk 4 hri aq tlg mak aq bkk kedai...slow2 aq rse ianya x lak beban sgt pn..just tdo aq x leh topup smpi skang...
walaupn bgn kol 12 p.m aq still ngantok...

tdi aq t'men hujan..skang dh dizzy ckit...gawat2.
esok nk bkk kedai..cian mak aq bkk sesorg..mampu t'kangkang 6t
anyway...aq dh n\mkn ubat..hopefully x bmm ah esok...

nothing special..happen today..so....that its..
maybe tomorrow is new adventure

Long time no sin...

Dri pg smpi ptg ddk kt kedai...fedup aq camnie...
tpi..sek bek mlm 2 dpt g bdr...t'ubat rse stress aq

anyway dlm p'jlnn td...ade small accident..
cian..kete dyeorg lgr lbg...
seme tyr kete rosak..
tpi nk wt camne dh nsb..time jelah yerrr

about the sin...
dh lme x men mte ngan bdk laki..
4 the first time...aq wt blik sin 2..hehehe
tpi x per..best gak...

sbnrnyerr...there something bothering me..
psl mamat'M' [bez pren aq]..
dye kte dye fall in love once again..
tpi bru pts cinta x smpi bape mggu..
laki nie mmg cpt b'ubh ati ker????
(boys sila jwb)
aq lak dh lah bodo...bleh lak ari 2 aq ajk dye couple..
ala bru sdr kslhn dri..hehehe
bkn nk ajk serius just gurau je tpi...
klu dye fall 4 someone else t'rase ah jgk
but, he is my bezzzzzzzz pren so..no love story n no heart feeling pleaze

A new jurnal had opened

Korang pernah dgr x ayt' Hidup x sllunya sng'...aq stuju gler ngan kte2 tu..
Bler aq tgh stress study dlu...skul lah tmpt plg aq bnci...tpi skang skul lah tmpt plg aq windu..
i hope we all can remain young 4ever.. be 2gether 4ever.... i really miss my classmate n my roomate..

aq wt blog nie pn utk hlg kn rse windu aq kt dieorg..

tmbh2 ag mak aq bkk kedai ari nie... letih gler...
aq plk mmg x ske keje under org len...camne lh nk hdp nie..

tpi aq still happy sbb aq still ade bezpren yg sllu tmn aq lalui ari2 aq..mlgnya dyeorg x phm prsaan aq