List of hurt and heart

Dalam banyak2 bende kat dunia nie...ada yg aq ske dn ade yg aq benci. Tp thank god aq dijadikan xbenci sesuatu tu lme2. Kadang2 aq pn benci perasaan nie...sbb sometime someone worth to be hate foer the rest of my life.

But few thing yg sllu buat aq happy is
♥ wakeup to baby cry
♥ wakeup to my sweetheart voice and toys
♥ baking new recipe
♥ lee kwang soo
♥ got7
♥ travel
♥ sleep
♥ red ferrari
♥ scent of sea
♥ swimming
♥ diving
♥ day dreaming
♥ coding
♥ twin

And few thing yg aq benci is
♥ sweet talker
♥ handsome guy with a wife
♥ liar
♥ coding
♥ being ordered around
♥ business
♥ debt - ptptn mara
♥ my busy brother and sister
♥ spend money on useless thing
♥ shopping
♥ my body because im fat
♥ thing i hate the most is old hindustand movie - khabi khusi khabi gham , kuch kuch, mann, ... they never fail make me cry until i hurt my head and eyes

One thing i hate and love is my bed.. my own bed. I dont know why..the earliest time i can sleep on my bed is 4.30am. But i can sleep anytime anywhere else. Is my bed is curse to me?

Fans??

Its really amazing how fans can turn love to hate in just a split of second.
But what amazed me the most is they claim they understand every single thing.
Idol is a human...they make mistake..they can lie...they can broke their promises.
How come fans can do all those thing but idol cant.
Wahh...and hatred word. Wahh..daebak...it like they are the one that hurt the most.
Its either sm is wrong or idol is wrong...please be greatful that at least they exist to entertain you. First kris then tao...wahh. really haters???
(This is 2 month old draft)

Btw...got7 has reach 12M view. OMG...please. i really wish my future husband can sing "just right" for me every single time i fail my diet. Let just say i wish got7 member is my hubby. Hehehe.
As a proud ahgase i really hope everyone in got7 stay the way their are.
First time support kpop idol and i meet an amazing fandom as igot7. No regret at all.

But haters can you dissapear from our fandom. Because we dont need you. Just let them do whatever they are doing. Let bambam do the whip dance. Let them happy doing what they do best. They still kids for godsake...let them do everything as long as it does not ruin their life. Bambam igot7 understand that you must be hurt..after you get better, please smile for us. Because we are here to support you.

Im proud to say i love exo...vixx...and much much more proud to say i love got7 from pluto to earth and back. Got7 please stay imperfect because that what we are..as a human.

**aq xpaham kenapa ada orang xske klu pompuan ske kpop...ade org xske klu ank dye ske kpop. Maksiat?? Hello...aq rse cite western tu lg bhya. MV dyeorg lg xsenonoh. Then why people hate it soo much. Patutnye tgk bright sight. Ape2 cite..negara ko minat skli pn klu ko nk ambik yg buruk jer..ko tgk cite arab ko leh ambik yg buruk.
But for me...kpop make me forget lots of thing. Orang lain putus cinta betahun2 bru abis...aq 3bulan dh settle. Sbb ade kpop utk alih perhatian aq. Yg paling penting kpop always show me new gadget and technology..because korea is one of the best asian country that have a great technology. Kpop nie ko berangan ah ko dpt jmpe ngan sejuta group kpop pn...in the end ko thu tu angan2 yg xkn jd kenyataan(for me..sebab aq xkn bazirkn duit utk kpop) byr hutang ptptn ngan mara lg bgus. Xkaya wt gaya xkaya...org berhutang wt gaya org berhutang. Jgn ligat sgt gne duit**

The birth of great men

Let me tell you a story...
24 years and 2 days ago..a boy was born.
He was an unknown boy to some part of the world..he was unknown to some part of community...and definitely unknown to me.
But god has its way of introducing him to the world..to the community and to me...and to them.
It not entirely fate to know him as he was my classmate..but it is pure fate that he is my boyfriend..my brother..my other half..my strength..my happiness and part of my everything.

It is never in our memory how we come close to each other..it just happen. It just pure fate that we talk and we click.
Some people get close by doing something stupid together..but we never do anything stupid together
We never skip class...we never got detention..we never broke public properties..we never do those bad thing
But for sure..we always talk during recess..with me buying all the food most of the time..we always sleep during class..we always talk during monday assembly

I was there when he learn to fall in love...i was there when he cannot forget his love..i was there when he first call me that he going to study in KL (u dont know how much i cried that day...stupidly i dont even know why i cry)

But as much as i was there for him...he was there for me more that i can even imagine

He was there when my trust to all boy was zero...i cant trust any boy at that time..but i trust him
He was there when im still innocent
He was there when i learn to fall i  love
He was there when im fighting with my ex every month
He was there when im break up with my ex
He was there when short sleeve + scarf is enough
He was there since "Yang..jom couple"..till "couple? I dont give a shit bout that stuff"
He was there since "yangg..matrik susah. Aq nak benti ah"..till "yangg..software engineering susah. Aq nak benti ah"..till "yangg..master susah giler"
He was there since "yang..aq ada quiz malam nie"..till "yang..aq ada test esok"..till "yang...aq ade thesis presentation nanti"..till "...."
He was there since i call him every single quiz i will face...till every test i will face..till my final thesis presentation..till he call me because i never call him
He was there since my innocent day..to my bad day...to my busy day
He was there for every single drop of tear i shed because of life treat me hard

Everyone that know our story offen said "you love him right?"
My answer always "yes..i do"
When they ask "why dont you couple with him then?"
My answer will always and forever will be "i dont want to ruin our friendship..and he know to much about me...my good and my bad"

He really know my good and my bad...that why i cant be with him
He who sees my tears..my mistake..my sin
It amazing how he is the one that i will call if i want to cry..despite that he never really confort me. He just talk randomly till i stop crying

It may be selfish but i wish you a very happy belated birthday
Dipanjangkan umur yang berkat
Dimurahkankan rezeki
Dipermudahkan jodoh...and damn..that girl is lucky to have you bro
Di kurniakan kesihatan
And most important and selfish wish is that i wish you live long enough to always be there for me..to support me..to give me strength..to love me till the end

I LOVE YOU BRO..YANG..ABANG..PAKWE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY