hurts....

its hurt everytime....seeing them seeing him....its really hurt when u luv some1 but he never know its...n most important when he telling u about his luv...
i thought they know me very well...but i guess im really an unprecictable n mystery person after all...
its getting hurt when...now he never reply my msg...he dint even remember my birthday...what else should i ask from him...if i ask him to break with her...he'll be very sad...i can't hold his sadness...maybe its time 4 me 2 let things go...
to free both of my bf to other girl..since i know i will never get both...n i will never can choose either one of them...
its will be much easier said then do it...
but...i know as long as some1 u luv din't know u luv him/her u will get reward from god...
but then..only god know how its hurt soo much...
to get a new boys in my life is the hardest thing ever 4 me...
wish him could understand this...n plezz dont test me again...
cause if the heart is hurt no1 could see it not like any other physical injury...
i may smile...i may laught...i may say anything...but the truth only me who know its

hepi bday...

yeah..hepi bday 2 me...tpi x de org wish pn.. x pe ah yg pntg aq nk iter psl bdk nie
dye nk ajk aq jmpe awek dye...tpi dye x sdr yg aq sbnrnyer ske kt dye x pe ah...sdh ah 1 ari smlm nsb aq mmg mlg nk mampus...
mood: cuak nk test math esok

Differ....

beza lmn sosial len ngan blog adalah...kt cnie aq len jd dri aq...sbb aq sure org x knl aq spe..wlupn member aq hmpr2 wt aq cuak...
blog leh tngkn fkrn aq yg tgh serabut ngan dunia realiti...sbb hakikat yg x dpt d terima adalah hakikat yg plg perit....
aq dh x thn nk tgk dye ngan dye...walupn bibir aq t'sym ngalahkn kerang busuk tpi ble aq sorg2 dyeorg jgk yg mncl...seyesly aq ckp...tuhan jer yg thu prsaan aq...sktnyer hati bler org yg kter suka suka kt org yg kter syg...
ade bdk fb aq prnh ckp"sacrifice blindly is a foolish sacrifice" tpi aq t'paksa demi kebahagian org2 yg aq syg...hdp aq byk ajr aq...biar kter derita demi org yg kter syg...
aq nie jht gak...sllu hrp dyeorg break tpi...bler nmpk dyeorg hepi aq x leh ckp aq hepi tpi...aq...rse tng tgk dyeorg t'sym...biar ah aq derita...moga2 allah hntr aq org yg lg bek dri dye...
tpi...mslh aq adalah...rmai bdk bek kt dunia nie tpi x de yg fhm aq mcm dye fhm aq...mcm mne nk bhgia bler aq asyik nk yg perfect jer kn???
hahaha
tpi bkn ker 2 yg seme org nk...org nk yg bek n org yg fhm kter melebihi sesiapa pn kt dunia nie...

mood...

skang tgh sdih ssgt...abg aq majuk ngan aq...anto msj x bls komen fb de wt bodo...sllu ok jer klu aq kutuk dye..ari nie nk touching2 lak...hish benci btul...x leh ke 1 ari klu aq x gdh ngan dyer...bosan ah ckp ssorg...nyesal lak usik dyer td klu thu dye nk majuk cmnie....
td aq menipu ag...wlupn dh janji x nk tpu ag tpi bler aq ckp x sdr pn..dh siap ckp bru aq sdr...camne ah nk jd bdk bek aq nie...
mood....sedih sssgt
abg sori ah..adik x sngaja....

migrain....

dh msk 1 bln msk u...mkin byk benda utk aq fkr...n ble dh byk benda nk fkr...dtg ah migrasi aq...hish..ubt lak tggl...pose lak 2...nk jer aq hantuk pale nie kt dinding...
selain 'pakwe' aq...blogger adalah tmpt aq luah prsaan...sbb 2 aq hrp org x knl aq saper...
aq x thu nk ckp mcm mne...aq hrp sgt mamat 'h' x lme ngan bdk 2....tpi...bler...dyeorg selisih fhm ckit...mesti mamat 'h' 2 sedih..mesti ngadu ngan aq...wlupn aq hrp dyeorg x lme tpi ble jd cmnie aq sedih sgt...x sggp nk dgr dye b'sedih...bru dgr, blum tgk muka sdih dye ag..aq x sggp sgt nk thn prsaan sdih bler dye sedih..tpi mlgnyer dye xkn thu n xkn thu...klu dyeorg break mesti dye nangis...sggp ke aq thn rse sedih dyer...nie kes klu dye happy aq merana bler dye sedih aq pn sdih...both bring me no good at all...2 perkara nie...buat aq sdih...
org kte cinta x b'makna memiliki..tpi sakit hati yg kter tanggung bknnyer org fhm...aq thu..sjk aq knl dyer since form 4 until now...hidup aq byk d kelilingi dyeorg...pusing2 dyeorg gak aq ngadu...skt ati dyer tmpt ngadu..bosan dyer tmpt kutuk...tpi ble dye bahgia aq yg merana...tuhan jer thu prsaan aq...
org sllu ckp cre nk lupakn ssorg ngan cpt ialah cri org len..tpi...aq x mampu nk cri org len bler..nk bndg org 2 ngan dyer...dyer lbih fhm aq b'bndg mne2 laki kt dunia nie..even my parent blum tentu fhm aq...
dyer time jer aq wlupn aq byk sktkn ati dyer...mmg byk aq sktkn ati dyer...aq sdr 2...kkdg dyer ngadu dyer t'rse ngan aq..tpi still perkara 2 dyer wt cm aq x pernah sktkn ati dyer...
kl ader korg jmpe spe2 yg bleh fhm aq cm dyer fhm aq..mgkn org 2 leh msk dlm list wanted aq...mood....soooo sad...

day....

another day...withoui study...argh isnin nie dh ah ade quiz math...mmg skit jiwa raga bler blik rmh...niat nk bce ade...buku 2 yg tetiba ade kaki...mcm dye melarikn dri jer dri aq...ah...
but...days at home was much more meaningfull then in the hostel...but my future is there so,by hook or by crook i hv 2 b there again...n its take ne 3 years more 2 go...long days..long week...long years..n lots 2 b discover...
bru2 nie member ade link gmbr dyeorg shuffle time skul dulu2..time aq btul2 nk msk band hardstyle n breakers but...x kesampaian...mse 2 study lgi pntg...tpi skang dpt tgk org break pn rse cm windu sgt zmn2 dlu...zmn 2 kteorg x ksh pn ape ckg. ckp...anyway ckg.disiplin pn member kamcing kteorg...jrg ah bdk kls aq kne mrh mse 2..walaupn kteorg x de bek sgt...haha...wish 2 see more hardstyle dance n breakers kt luar 6t...

fasting...

Haha...dah hari ke2 bru aq leh on9 blogger...so,aq mulakn ngan mengucapkn selamat menyambut ramadhan al-mubarak...ramadhan mengajar kte thn lpr,dahaga,nafsu, n seme niat yg x bek2... Nk share cerita b`buka ari p`tama mmg sdh...aq b`buka sesorg jer roomate ade yg blik ade yg b`buka kt surau jd tggl lh aq sesorg...klu bleh mmg nk nangis sgt ari 2.tpi nsb bek ade ex-roomate yg tmn aq n pakwe2 yg aq mmg syg smpi ble2..

Ari ke2 lak ade pakwe kte nk blnje air tpi x jd ah plk sbb kteorg ade quiz programming...psl quiz mmg ssh ssgt.rse cam fail spm x leh jwb quiz 2...tpi x pe sempena bln ramadhan nie...aq akn sbr n akn b`usaha lg utk programming..klu korg ade thu kt mne ade jual buku lthn programming tlg ah bgthu kt aq...moga2 ngan bantuan korg aq akn cemerlang dlm programming lps nie..pas2 6t aq dh wt software aq ltk nme korg.

Aq rse smpi cnie je ah dlu aq mengarot len kli dgr aq ah ag karuttan aq nie..salam n slmt b`buka

Nothing...

actually i hv nothing to say just its had been a while since my last day in blog sooo just wanna update...tggl lg 3 hari jer lg nk pose..
so..."SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK" pada semua....klu ada slh silap hrp di ampun yer...assignment byk ag x wt...programming n silat...sblm lupe..aq nk introduce kt korg 1 ag indie band..tpi yg nie special ckit sbb aq knl ahli kmplnnyer...dyeorg kwn aq...kualiti lagu dlm myspace x brpe best tpi sbnrnyer leh thn ah jgk awok2 nie...klu korg nk dgr lgu dyeorg leh ah try cri
http://www.myspace.com/theapluszsystemsejarah group nie...dyeorg just still student kt shahputra kuantan...haha...niat nk bwk genre screamo tpi blm khatam lgi ilmu 2 jd just akustik first..insyaallah klu dh siap dyorg kte dyeorg tkr genre...lirik yg jiwang2 2 sbb ahli kum tgh pts cinta..hahaha...but anyway...try listen 2 'pergi saja' n 'kali pertama' nie first lgu dyeorg ah...kre single ah nie...try ah dgr yer..
k ah nk smbg wt assignment ag nie...len kli aq p'knlkn indie band len lak, ok???

Thank god.....

alhamdulillah...2 je yg mampu aq ckp skang...walaupn lps satu..satu mslh yg dtg...tpi mslh 2 x lme...allah byk tlg aq...plg lme pn sehari ah je ah mslh nie b'thn lps 2 mesti settlenyer...x thu ag mcm mne aq leh say thank to god...aq akn b'usaha utk smbhyg pnh lps nie..nie je cre aq leh tnjkkn kesyukurn aq...
walaubagaimanapun...ada 1 mslh yg dtg...tpi x bsr ag ah...tpi aq thu ...klu aq biar kn mesti mslh nie jd mslh bsr....sbnrnya...aq rse aq x leh rpt ngan mne2 laki kt dunia nie sbb...aq cpt sgt melatah...org bru komen kt fb ckit aq dh rse org 2 ske kt aq...gasak2...luaran rock...dlmn mengalahkn aiskrim....cpt sgt cair...ade jgk org cm nie eh..hahaha..
dlu aq plig benci org yg tulis msj @ komen kt fb akhirnya mesti ada'hahaha' tpi nmpk nyer aq dh t'pengaruh....sbnrnya aq ttp benci cme aq x nk ah ade org terasa ngan ape yg aq ckp @ komen...biar je ah dyeorg anggap aq men2 wlup sbnrnya aq bnr2 mkskn sstgh perkara 2...
hari nie aq nk share...psl sujud syukur(jap aq cri..aq pn x thu..nie ah kebaikn blog...aq ajr smbl bljr) n handle with care(fav indie band aq skang)...
Rukunnya sujud syukur ialah :
1. Berniat untuk sujud syukur
2. Membaca takbiratul ihram, ketika sujud
3. Satu kali sujud(*“Subhana Rabbiyal A’la wabihamdih” sebanyak tiga kali.)
bacaan yg digalakkan..x bce pn x pe
* “Allahumma laka sajadtu, wabika amantu walaka aslamtu sajada wajhiyalillazi halaqohu wasowwarahu wasyakkahu sama’hu wabasorahu bihaulihi waquwwatihi tabarakallahu ahsanul hooliqiin.”

* “Subbuhun quddusan rabbuna warabbul malaikatu warruh.”


4. Memberi salam sesudah duduk


handle with care..korang leh cri sal band nie lbh detail kt fb @ Myspace: http://www.myspace.com/handlewithcaremy
serba sedikit psl dyeorg yg len bce sendiri

Handle With Care is an independent pop punk band based in Petaling Jaya. The band consists of Faisal Yusof on vocals and bass, Andy Seah and John Paul Pacaldo on guitars, and Abdul Musowir a.k.a. Moose on drums.