Maybe i am not a kind of girl that have a good principle but at least i am not hypocrite. Just be who i am,naive,straight forward and i love to think negatively.Why??? Because...when we always think positive and when its not like what we hope for...its hurt. I had enough of heart broken. So its better this way.But i control it well...i think..hehe
Assalammualaikum..
So, i'm writing again. Been long since I last updated this blog slash diary. Either way, as the subjected title...phd journey.
Firstly, I really dont think I have any right to write this title. Why? Because, as of now, I don't make any effort to write a research proposal. And I'm still in dilemma in choosing my research interest. So, effort = zero.
Secondly, every scholarship I saw and apply is closing soon. Like reeeeallyyyy soon. So, no chance to get to any university by next year.
Third, I think I grow old waiting for a scholarship. My target is to get married by 25, but that seem not happening anytime soon. So, studying is a better way to wait to get married. But I think my brain grow old with my age. I can't really think how I want to study and get married. I have to choose between study and marriage. And unfortunately, I choose study over marriage. (This is due to my single status. I bet it gonna change if I am in a relationship)
Fourth, after full consideration and discussion. I think I gonna pay for my PTPTN debt first before continue my study. It worth 22K. OMG!!! MY MONEY!!!
Fifth, I gonna apply for university oversea and wait until I get scholarship. Why? Because I can effort 1 sem fee to further my study in UMP. But for 3 years? I don't think i'm that rich enough.
Sixth, I definitely think teaching is my path. So, gonna try find job in teaching as much as possible. And I also been thinking of applying for TESL. It one of the best way to travel and get money I think. No doubt money are important in life. OH MY...I start thinking money are important...I must growing old already.
Seventh, i gonna try looking for job in KL. The scary KL. The busy KL. For the first time I gonna try this. For others it may not seem like a big deal...but for me..for someone that hate KL..tettt..not KL in general but I hate big city. And KL is one of it. So, it is a big deal for me to apply for job in KL.
Eigth, I should start doing my research proposal right? I should start spend money on university admission right? I should try apply for job in KL right? So...this is my challenge this year? Don"t know if I brave enough for this. But I definitely gonna try and challenge this.
Nineth, after all this I should be able to reward myself right? Should I go travel? Should I go sightseeing? Should I go diving? Lombok? Korea? Koh lanta?