What make me going?
I would say...my religion.
Because Allah say it is HARAM to suicide,
Because Allah say be PATIENCE,
Because Allah say it is a TEST.
Seriously...if there is no reminder about this...i think, a lot more will take this shortcut.
Now I understand what those people think before they go.
They think that...even they go further..it is useless.
No one will support...no one will appreciate..
Even you struggle every single day,
Even you stress out every single second,
Even you breathless every single breath,
They keep finding your fault...
They keep discaurage you...
In the end those thought come.
And when we go...
They blame us for not being strong
But...
They forget...
Words that they said whether intentionally or not...its hurt...more than blade
When your own family keep digging your fault...keep bringing it up
That when words hurt more than thousand blade.
But they did not know...because those blade are unseen
I hope one day they know...they understand
Before they lose someone,
Before they lose me.
Im strong because of my religion
Not because of my mentality.
And that scared me more.