wonder....

just wonder....what make us happy???
just wonder....can we live alone????
just wonder....why we always have problem???
just wonder....what is the real meaning of true friend???
just wonder....can a friend be a friend if they fall in love???
just wonder....why we all very proud to have a couple???
just wonder....can we live 4ever with some1 we <3???
just wonder....why we never stop find happiness that always infront of us???
just wonder....why is there a politic since it make us apart???
just wonder....will we ever be thankful 4 the hard we been through???
just wonder....did lost make us suffer or happy???
just wonder....how many time we ever think b4 we act???
just wonder....is a pet is a must???
just wonder....did rich @ poor make us differ???
just wonder....what will happen if we did not make 1 of any decision we ever made???
just wonder....will we be the same if we make another choice???
just wonder....why there is a road less taken???
just wonder....did a fairy tale is originaly maintain since its been pass???
just wonder....how long will we be able to live???
just wonder....did we a good child to our parent???
just wonder....when will we be able to stop wonderring and try to find the anwser???
i know i will not try to find the anwser......why???...b'cause it make me realise im not perfect...but if u what to find the anwser...u better start looking now!!!!!

scared????

aq tgh tkt ats 2 bnde...first utk operation aq esok...second utk msk u.....tpi yg aq plik nape dye bkk profile aq je....sdgkn dye dh ade awex....bygkn dye sggp on9 fb n just look at my profile...tpi x thu ah klu 2 kbtln jer...ape yg pntg...klu ade yg bce post nie...tlg doakn kjyaan aq utk esk

what....

apa nie......wlupn aq dh dpt u....tpi....u yg aq x hrp...aq igt nk msk uitm tpi...len lak yg aq dpt....walaupn still dlm pilihn aq...tpi aq ltk yg last skli...still gak aq x hrp sgt dpt...aq nk g jauh dri sni tpi nmpknya kne still kt phg ag ah....arghhhh...nk nangis rse....anyway hrp dpt jmpe org yg sekepala ngan aq kt u 6t....arghhh aq nk blik KT....all my fren was there...hlg mood aq nk ngadap laptop lelama

addicted....

aq rse aq dh addicted ngan hwc...aq x thu nape...tpi bler dgr sore dyeorg trs hlg seme mslh aq....terbang melayang....best giler ah group dyeorg...aq bru sdr kt mlysia byk giler indie band...so since aq nyer blog name blackindieugly...aq akn try selit skit2 psl indie band nie...
bkn ape...aq skt ati bler...band dri luar sng2 dpt wt show kt ngre kte tpi...band kte blh kte 1 dlm 10 band je yg leh wt show kt ngre luar...sdgkn kualiti band kte lg best dri band dyeorg....tpi aq noticed skang nie...dh byk jgk band kte g luar ngre....cme kte x thu...ade yg famous kt luar ngre dri ngre sendiri cam zee avi,bunkface,hujan,lydias diery....cam bunkface n hujan...leh kte its impossible org kter x knl spe dyeorg...tpi sbtulnyer dyeorg dpt lg byk show kt luar dri kt mlysia sendiri.....sbb pe...sbb..org kter bkn ske sgt labur duit support local band...stkt byr rm 150 dyeorg kte mhl, tpi klu tokio hotel sggp lak dyeorg byr rm250...aq plik btul ngan org kter....agung kn sgt band luar bkn nyer dpt faedah....
citer psl faedah nie....israel...semggu 2 nie hari2 kter dgr psl kkjmn dyeorg...tpi dh lumrah...dh d tulis islam akn klh lu sblm bgkt n berjaya....aq ade ckp ngan kwn aq...psl p'kara nie n dye kte klu islam mng 2 yg kte ptt takut..sbb 2 tandanyer nk kiamat sgt2 dh...jd p'soalannyer...mne lg tkt kemenangan islam @ kekalahan islam...itu ats iman seseorg utk tntukn...
bkn nk kte ah tpi aq pn x smpurna...solat pn b'lobang...tpi stkt nie...aq cbe utk jdi yg t'baik...cme bab derhaka n x ngan mak aq 2 aq x leh kwwl....mmg dri kcl aq ske m'jwb...aq sendiri x sdr ape yg aq ckp leh skitkn ati mak aq....jd....im trying to be perfect...walaupn no body perfect

its fated....

at last....return crew kne kluar gak....at first aq igt famous crew yg akn kuar...skli ble battle dyeorg hbt sgt....and again...gbc mmg kne ubah attitude korg...sllu nk kuang ajar ngan lwn korg....even the battle is over but still u guys want to show off....but u guys mmg best...just watch out wit the attitude....x b'makna korg b-boy hbt korg leh b'lgk...let it ah..bkn tu aq nk citer....
td aq add 1 blog...(about me...)...its good to know men also get hurt when get break...so...aq try ah nk komen but....x leh n i dont know why...bru nk share some thought...anyway x de jodoh kot...hahaha...
but seriusly...ape dye ckp mmg btl..jeles gler bler tgk org ade kapel...n still aq duk tggu mamat "h" tu...sbnrnyer x ah tggu sgt just nk thu brpe lme dyeorg leh b'thn....the truth is i miss my friend soooooo...much...wish they could give me some time...and...klu lh aq dpt pth blik zmn skul men dlu mmg best...kt c2 ah aq knl rempit...shuffle..breaking...n i know some friend....thought it would be the real friend but maybe not...just need some company right now..hahaha...it funny when ur enemy/ ex bf is all u need right now when u just hate him sooo..much

shit....

aq igt aq x kn t'rse dh klu aq dpt thu dyeorg kapel blik; tpi mmg aq tgh skit ati sgt2 skang nie....lg skt ati dri kne p'main oleh mamat 'a' 4 thn dlu....time2 nie aq sgt butukan mamat 'a'...cme dye yg sllu ske sktkn ati aq...aq rse cam cme dye yg fhm aq...sdgkn hakikatnyer dye yg plg x fhm aq....tpi saat2 cam nie aq nk percaya ape yg aq percaya je bkn kbnrnnyer...tpi nape, kwn2 aq dh x endahkn aq...bkn sorg tpi semenyer...jd skang aq btul2 dh x de kwn...bkn je laki pompuan pon...nape???!!! ape slh aq sbnrnyer...aq sgt2 nk nangis skang nie..tpi llps 4 thn lps aq dh x blh nagis ats hal2 b'kaitn laki n kwn ag...setiap kli aq nk nangis sbb kwn n laki...peristiwa d p'main oleh kwn yg plg aq hrp n percaya dh buat aq...lgi sng aq leh kte air mate aq dh kering...tpi..smpi ati dyeorg kapel x brthu aq...@ mgkn slh aq sbb ske pd org yg x mgkn ske kt aq.....tpi dye kte aq bezpren dye...tpi nmpknyer mcm musuh dyelah...aqlah org last yg thu ape2 hal sal dye....argh...aq btl2 nk nangis n perlukn kwn skang nie....i wish ade org ske aq n sedia dgr aq skang nie...n x kn tggl aq....even mak aq pn dh x syg aq skang nie...maybe aq should just be a new person...aq pttnyer lbh........ntah aq x thu...
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smbgn BLUR...

When I in standard three, I have been taken care by my aunty. My parent take me to my aunty care because, I love to fight with my little brother. Since my aunty really wants a daughter, so they give me instead of my brother. At first, it hard to me to adapt to the new environment and the language. Since I was a baby I been take care by my parent, we live in Pahang, we speak either broken English or Malay. And I never been taught the Terengganu dialect even, my parent are Terengganu’s and even I’m too. I still remember the first question I ask my grandmother after my parent leave me and headed back to Pahang.” Nenek, kenapa ibu ngan ayah tinggal along kat sini, dyeorg dah tak saying along lagi ke?” My grandmother just smile and say, “ nanti dyeorg datang lah lagi hujung bulan ni” At that time just one thing cross my mind, all the chicken was dirty. Because I never really want the answer and I just looked at all the chicken my grandmother have. Its take me a couple of day before I meet a new friend, Alifash, we are classmate but I don’t recognized her but she do. She even asked me to play with her. She asked me to bring along a bicycle but I don’t have it. So I ride with her. We go to her house; there I find a new job and a new experience of a lifetime. It make me realized how different village and a city. How their job, how their respect to each other, how they spend most of their time and how they make us thankful to be here…to be with each other, to help and to share our joy together. There, I also learn how to cut the ‘keropok’ for sale, how to canting the batik before it’s been soak in warm water. I even make batik from the design until it had to be dried. I even get paid for those amazing job. Although, it just one ringgit for two job but it was more than enough to me. Right after we finished our job, we all go for a play in the lagoon. Alifash, and his brother and his fried we’re joined us to the lagoon every day. We climb a tree to see her brother and his friend playing football. It’s true that football is an international game, we can see it been played everywhere.

w.t.h.....

ari nie aq ade amali kete, sbnrnye amali spttnyer 6 jam...3 jam ceramah...lg 3 jam kte bljr psl kete 2...tpi aq nyer amali.....3 jam ceramah...lg 3 jam lepak kt pmc...rse mcm org giler lpk kt pmc 3 jam....tpi nsb bek gak...x pyh aq peluh2 cbt tyr kete 2...dh ah pns terik ptg td....
lme dh aq x tgk org rempit...igtkn skang org dh x men rempit2....mse aq form 1-3 dlu sllu ah lpk ngan bdk2 rempit mmdgkn dyeorg bdk kls aq je...tpi..ble seme pn dh smbg bljr n port rempit kt snie ade org dh accident mati...aq igtkn dh abih ah zmn org men rempit.tpi...ptg td ade ag org rempit mmg best....tpi rempit nie under mjls belia dn sukan jd...x slh ah...
dh dua msj aq dpt psl srh blok fb sbb fb nie pangkalan israel...tpi....x smpi ati...bkn sng nk jmpe member lme..kt fb je ah...lgpn klu btl nk blok israel...bkn stkt fb byk ag brg israel yg kte gne...henset, mknn,mnmn, so...just take the right decision...just jgn kte skong ape yg dyeorg wt ckp....klu hanye melibatkn agama rmi pihk x nk msk cmpr... tpi skang...ble melibatkn ngre kte kne bkk mata jgn smpi dri kte d tnds kte x sedar ag..skang sbg 1malaysia...x kre agama,bangsa kte spptnye sme2 b'doa agr israel d bls ats p'buatannye...
tpi aq plik ah israel nie...mcm mne dye still bleh b'kuasa sdgkn skrg seme ngre tgh kecam dye...dlu...lggr janji gencatan senjata...skang serng kapal x b'slh...siap tuduh kte srg dye dlu ape hal yop...sdr dri...x sllu israel kt ats...smpi mse 6t...ko rse ah derita org yg ko tnds tu....

anyway psl...novel...6t aq update ag

miss u....

oh...who i miss u blog...really3x miss u...sejak aq sbk kt kedai n pc aq rsk seme p'kara dh jd normal blik....aq x thu samada aq pt rse hepi @ skt ati tpi serius ckp dyeorg x m'jadi....aq igt rse hepi akn aq rse tpi lps thu rse skt ati lg byk...bkn pe sggp dye wt main kn kwn aq...rse b'slh pn ade dye org break....ah dh ah cite psl mamat'h' tu....skang aq nk tunai janji psl novel tu....
tpi cite psl novel nie....aq bkn penulis n aq sllu dpt b dlm essay n krgn bm jd aq x lyk nk di pggl seorg sasterawan jd bhse aq gne broken eng. bkn sbb aq nk b'lgk tpi bi result bi aq lg bek dri result bm aq jd sbb 2 aq gne broken eng...lgpn aq x nk adik aq bce...jd sori ah klu novel aq x best.
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BLUR...
Even though, the time when I was a child had pass me more than a decade but the memory is still crystal clear in my mind. I don’t know why some of those memory does not gone from my mind even I have a short term memory but those memory…let just say…they are really naughty. Or maybe it is because, there I meet the name of friend and maybe love or maybe not. Some of those memory like when I in standard one…I meet something that we called it as a friend… I don’t know…just a blink I got a new friend…her name is Araf. I like her name it was so unique. We are like a bff…we go to lunch together, playing together, holding hand and the best part is we never see each other before even we are neighbor. There, I also meet my first crush…my first David Archuleta… but unfortunately I don’t remember his name…but one thing I remember the most about him is that…he love to sleep in the class just like me...and we even sit next to each other. I remember the incident when teacher do her job, teaching, we are sleeping. We actually sit the first row that meant in front of the blackboard and the teacher. But we are just a naïve student or maybe we just a really lazy student. What should we aspect the teacher will do, let us sleep or woke us up. The answer is B. She woke us with a cotton bud. At first she uses it to korek our nose and I woke…but he doesn’t. So she changes it to the ears and he woke up. The whole class was laughing to him, including me. Why? The expression rights after he woke that make us laughing…his eyes were red and air liur basi was all over his uniform. He even cries that the teacher woke him up from his beauty sleep. However, I think he had move away when we are in standard two. Because when I try searching for him I can’t find him. Or maybe he still in the last class but in standard two I was in the first class. Amazing isn’t? From the last class to the first class. Nope, actually the classroom is small and don’t fit a lot of student. So, I have to sit in the last class since I don’t go to the kindergarten that the school provided but I go to the kindergarten that a port provided because my father works in the port. But, it seem that even you are in the last class, even the way we been teach is different from the first class as long as you want to success, it can happen.
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